Darkness Within
Gazing out the window at the cloudy sky
I feel warm tears gather in the corner of my eye
My lips tremble and my hands shake
How much more of this can I take?
It seems like only yesterday that you were here
Now I live in darkness and fear
You were the light in my life
Now I feel dead and full of strife
The sky gets darker along with the pain in my heart
When did all of this darkness start?
It started when you went away
Long ago on that fateful day
Now I just want to lay me down to sleep
Why must the pain in my heart I always keep
Let me sleep in dreamless rest
Today has put my body and soul to the test
Just one night of dreamless sleep
In my heart dark secrets I keep
I close my eyes and hope not to dream
Please don’t let me awaken to that blood-curdling scream
I gaze out my window, as the sky grows darker yet
I blink my eyes for they are wet
Let me go and walk in the rain
Let the rain hide my pain
I want to know when I will feel life’s love again
I just hate not knowing where or when
My lips tremble and my hands shake
It’s much better to just stay awake!
In the darkness I know only fear
Now that you are no longer here
I want to close my eyes and sleep
This pain in my heart runs so deep
It’s you I wished were here
Not all this heartache and fear
I must move on into the light
This is the only way to make my life right
I long for undreamed sleep
I hang my head and weep
The darkness will soon begin
I know I have lost and cannot win
Be this heaven or be this hell
I know this pain so very well
I look to see if there is a light
All I see is dead cold night
I fear this will be the end of me
My heart and soul will never be free
I know my fate only too well
I know I’m going to end up in Hell!
Copyright © Brenda Martin | Year Posted 2016
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