As I Sit With Darkness
As I sit here, not knowing what I fear most, myself or life.
As I sit here not knowing if I'll ever be a normal person.
As I sit here knowing people love me, but wanting to love them, but I
can't, because I can't even love myself.
As I sit here knowing my love ones are suffering, because I'm
suffering.
As I sit here wishing I could be strong enough to over power what I
know is wrong and do right.
As I sit here knowing that my name will be just a memory to people
that know me and always think about the bad things I've done.
As I sit here seeing darkness in everything I see.
As I sit here not knowing if I see the world for what it really is or just
another miss guided person written off.
As I sit here not knowing if my mind is just sick or just knows the truth.
As I sit here I know that I sacrifice the happiness of loved ones for my
thoughts.
As I sit here I know I'm strong in one aspect. I will sit in darkness till
it's my day to know the answers.
As I sit here I'm sorry for my thoughts.
Copyright © James Chasen | Year Posted 2006
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