A Walk Through My Teen Pregnancy
i found out the shocking news
i was only 14
but i was pregnant
three months pregnant at that
people asked how didn't you know you were pregnant
i simply said i was showing no signs
are you scared they would ask
of course I'm scared I'm so young
four months pregnant now
i start having heavy bleeding i get scared and call my mom
she answers
i sob into my phone
mommy i think I'm losing my baby
what, when did you find out you were pregnant
i didn't want to tell you but i found out a month ago
i go to the hospital
how far along are you
four months can you do anything to help me not lose my baby
the doctor looked at me honey your not losing your baby your just having a period while your pregnant
now five months pregnant
the baby's father and i get into a fight and break up
three weeks later im dating a new guy who wants to help me raise my baby
we are together for two weeks and he goes to florida on a trip
comes back and i find out he cheated on me
i forgive him
he broke up with me two weeks later saying he doesn't think that he can handle being a dad at 17
now six months pregnant
i am scared and alone not sure if even i can handle being a mom
its a common concern since im only 15
the baby is growing healthy
i ponder whether or not to give the baby up
now seven months pregnant
me and the baby's father are back together and engaged
we decide we will keep the baby and move in together
for once we think we have things figured out
now eight months pregnant
i go to my weekly ultrasound
first week is fine
week two rolls around
i go and have my ultrasound
they tell me my baby is dead his umbilical cord strangled him
the admit me to the hospital
induce my labor
i give birth to a 5lb 2 oz 12inch long still born
he is the most beautiful baby i have ever seen
my boyfriend and i ask ourselves why us
we both are so young me being 15 him being 18
we both blame ourselves
fall into a deep dark depression
both decide life wasn't worth living with out Xavier
our attempt were just that attempt
how ever eight months later we are glad it didn't i am now 16 and married
we are so happy and want to try to have kids in the future
we hope and pray we won't have to goo through that every again
Copyright © Jennifer Spoores | Year Posted 2012
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