Still You
You know it’s still you, after all of this time.
I can’t love another; I’ve tried.
The pain you inflicted was never a crime,
But it sure felt as though I had died.
This love that I feel is a part of me now,
And I guess it will always be there.
My broken heart always forgives you somehow,
But sometimes it’s just too much to bear.
For so many years I have waited to see
Just how our love story will end.
Will we ever be lovers again, you and me?
Are we better off simply as friends?
I know in my heart we were destined to be,
I think that you know this is true.
The pain of the past is still living in me
And the fear of the future is, too.
I see in your eyes what you’re feeling inside
Yet you can’t say what I want to hear.
I wish I could see in your heart where you hide
The emotions you seem most to fear.
Somewhere there’s a key hidden safely away
In a room or a locker or vault.
Maybe lost or forgotten, it’s so hard to say
But, it’s really not anyone’s fault.
If things could be different and time could stand still
I’d stop it before there was pain
The past wasn’t here yet; no future to kill..
And only our love would remain.
The timing is wrong, as it always has been
No matter how hard I have tried;
The odds are against us, I can’t seem to win
In spite of the tears that I’ve cried.
The paths of our lives are each drawn in advance,
By the greatest mapmaker of all.
Only God has the power to give us a chance
To see if we climb or we fall.
I’m falling much more than I’m climbing, it seems.
God didn’t save much grace for me.
I’m stumbling along on a trail made of dreams
In search of some great destiny.
Coming to terms with my feelings for you
Is something that’s taken it's toll.
But I have to move on and remember it’s true:
Forgiveness is good for the soul.
Copyright © Cathy Martin | Year Posted 2011
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