Stay
Stay
Go! I screamed. Leave!
Start spreading the distance between you and me.
Why is all of this happening so quickly?
Go, I roared.
Stay I whisper…Stay
As I watched you walk away.
White is black, black is white
I don’t care about anything tonight
I know it’s not wrong, but it doesn’t feel right
People strike first to take the lead
Others continuously choose to fight
Some sink low and kill the heart
I feel we should end it before it even starts
Hoping I could come or you could stay
Knowing you have to leave
Go, I screamed, wishing you’d listen to me
Pleading God gives me the strength I need
To sacrifice what I love most in order for you to succeed
I know you would do this for me any day
Leave I said, release me from my fears
Go I smiled, trying to hold back my tears
I’ve known you for too long, too many years
I see you, I feel you, I need you, I think about you everyday
I hear your voice in my head, in my ears
Go I said, the sooner I can forget
Leave I cried, before I start to regret.
This is why I don’t attach.
It’s better to be alone, my skills unmatched,
Nothing to hold me back, my armor unscratched.
It’s a never-ending cycle; it’s all the same
People come and people go.
That’s never going to change, and there’s no one to blame.
The moon is up, it’s full and bright
The stars are out, there’s so many tonight
The doors are locked, my heart has stopped, and I look at the clock.
It’s over, it’s done, you’re gone.
Why do the happy moments happen so fast, but the painful ones and their aftermaths last so long?
It’s cold, I’m cold, I’m numb inside.
Goodbye I said to you. I love you, I’ll miss you
That’s what I said to you.
Listening to my logic.
Keeping my pride as my soul cried
What to do now I wonder?
Moving on isn’t easy.
Taking one step at a time, as my head throbs, my heart aches
My stomach feels queasy and my lips shake
Go! I yelled, Leave! I screeched with all my might
Finally finishing this internal struggle I faced and ending this endless strife
I need you to go, I want you to know, it’ll be all right
I wonder and dread how many more times I’ll have to do this in my life
Does it ever get any easier?
Was it worth it in the end?
Leave, Go
Stay here…with me
I don’t know
You tell me.
Copyright © Alanah Butler | Year Posted 2010
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