Must Go On
I met a man a few months back.
Cared for each other more than life itself.
Spent every waking moment together.
Inseparable.
Physically attracted to each other,
Mentally connected as one.
Finished each other sentences.
Knew what the other was thinking before a word was said.
Understood each other,
Had so much in common.
Could talk for hours on end about anything from life itself to fictional characters,
Taught each other lessons in life,
Explained the unknown subjects.
Were said to be perfect together,
We had good karma.
Could feel each other’s mood by just hearing the word ‘hello’.
Felt each other’s emotions.
One was sad so was the other.
One was happy and the feeling was mutual.
Shared many new experiences
Combined one’s was already had.
Told each other about our past and our future goals in life.
They always included the other.
He was taken from me.
We knew it was going to happen.
Tried to block out the inevitable,
But it was impossible.
I sit and watch him leading a life he doesn’t want.
Hurts to see him in a place he wishes not be.
Hurts to know he truly is not content.
He pretends he’s happy to hide his feelings,
I can see through the very thin act.
I cannot see him nor touch his soft skin.
All I can do is speak to him,
On very few occasions.
He speaks to me and he tries to encourage me.
He gives me words of wisdom.
Tells me how good I can be.
Explains how I have such potential,
Can do anything I please.
Tells me he knew I was the one.
We both have made mistakes in life,
Neither can change that.
We both have to live with them for the rest of our time,
His more visible than mine.
I know he is a good person.
Loving, caring, funny sweet and straightforward.
Is the best person I’ve ever met,
The most caring person I’ve ever known.
I wake up each day praying he’ll be there.
Go to sleep at night hoping to meet him in my dreams.
I know I must move on with my life.
Get to the goals we once had,
Alone.
I get scared, worried I cant to it,
But deep deep down,
I know I'm capable.
I may not be able to feel his touch
Or smell his sweet smell
But I do know, he’ll always be there for me
And if I need anything, I can call.
Its time I start reaching for the stars,
Accomplish what we always wanted.
There may be some pieces missing from the set,
But the show must go on.
Copyright © Lisa Hansen | Year Posted 2005
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