Screenglow
Should’ve realized it faster;
Scrolling on phone would be a disaster!
Only a few hours left until the deadline;
How I wish I could rewind
It wasn’t my plan to overuse
those time-vortex apps to be amused;
I unlocked my phone with useful intent
yet, there I was, consuming endless content
Now I’m triggered hearing someone talk
so insensitively about crimes, as a laughing stock;
They berate and belittle my kind,
yet, get a platform for a rotten mind
I wondered how I complain there’s no time
to sit back a moment and unwind
yet, I catch myself wasting time online
despite knowing what it does to my mind
The scrolling isn’t entertaining yet I got hooked;
Everyone used it casually, wherever I looked;
I believed it’s not a big deal
then caught myself scrolling even during meals
I see others online going live with media friends;
Chronically online to keep up with trends;
I wasn’t the one who would participate;
Only observed from a distance behind a gate
that was locked up with my insecurities and self-doubt,
all while feeling lonely and left out
I look at edited bodies posted for clout
to loathe myself and label the natural “too stout”;
My Reason to be here was for my art;
Thought I’d receive a good headstart
yet, I’m being unproductive
instead of creative and imaginative;
I hope this realization doesn’t get lost,
as, immense anxiety and melancholy would be the cost
For all my lost time, I wish to compensate;
All my wandering focus, I’ll redirect before it’s too late;
I know it’s possible, I can do great
and that’s a fact not up for debate
Copyright © Simran Kaushik | Year Posted 2023
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