Screenglow

Should’ve realized it faster; Scrolling on phone would be a disaster! Only a few hours left until the deadline; How I wish I could rewind It wasn’t my plan to overuse those time-vortex apps to be amused; I unlocked my phone with useful intent yet, there I was, consuming endless content Now I’m triggered hearing someone talk so insensitively about crimes, as a laughing stock; They berate and belittle my kind, yet, get a platform for a rotten mind I wondered how I complain there’s no time to sit back a moment and unwind yet, I catch myself wasting time online despite knowing what it does to my mind The scrolling isn’t entertaining yet I got hooked; Everyone used it casually, wherever I looked; I believed it’s not a big deal then caught myself scrolling even during meals I see others online going live with media friends; Chronically online to keep up with trends; I wasn’t the one who would participate; Only observed from a distance behind a gate that was locked up with my insecurities and self-doubt, all while feeling lonely and left out I look at edited bodies posted for clout to loathe myself and label the natural “too stout”; My Reason to be here was for my art; Thought I’d receive a good headstart yet, I’m being unproductive instead of creative and imaginative; I hope this realization doesn’t get lost, as, immense anxiety and melancholy would be the cost For all my lost time, I wish to compensate; All my wandering focus, I’ll redirect before it’s too late; I know it’s possible, I can do great and that’s a fact not up for debate