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Nina S. Poem
Staring in humans eyes trying to find my fantasy scarred when i realize that what i
want his eyes to read is only inside of me.
My eyes is where i should be.
Mutually in despair both of my heart and soul permanently tainted running away
from my misery. Wondering why i took us so seriously my emotions ran ahead of
me and I tried to catch up with them but didn't really want to guessing it was
always apart of me,me wanting you.
I wanted you to love me,love,love me like the love on TV staring in human eyes
trying to pull out my fantasy suddenly i realized it's only inside of me.
Emotionally destroyed by myself I'm still trying to save me from myself from my
pain and my memory of you.
When now I know it never was you just me trying to build you and make you
exactly what i hoped you to be. Staring in human eyes trying to form my fantasy.
So what are you really? I guess i never knew I couldn't really tune in to reality TV
because fantasy is much better trying to mold and shape you to be that guy the
prince charming off of TV when it was always me.Trapped inside my visions of
love my transparent delusions of you and me.If only I can see that it was always
me never you because you can not be my prince.Staring into human eyes
tugging at my fantasy.Is it tangible the love that is not me I've always been here
designing you. Despite my reality I continued to pull,tug and scream for my
fantasy; but it's only in me.I wanted you to love me crave me deserve me when I
didn't myself. What's left of me? I took all of my energy making us more than
what god meant for us to be. I have no pain,no distaste ,no despair,no anger
towards you all towards me for forming you. I made the creature that i allowed to
destroy me so why hate the creature? When it's only flaw was being made,being
born, being created by me. I have been stuck in this fantasy and deep inside i
am hoping that you my "prince charming" might save me from myself. I have
deceived ,mislead,cheated, and hurt myself.
I turned away from reality because i was falling in love with my fantasy.
I once began to think that you and i belonged together "selfishly addicted to the
life that i depicted".I've came to realize that "nothing can be done against the
truth" but i tried to prove that to be untrue but in the instead I found myself to be
untrue.So I now apologize to me for forming you and maybe just maybe after
loving me I may find you only the real you not my creation of you.
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Nina S. Poem
Empty my soul echoes hollow and deep
not sure how much is left of me
I'm quite sure I'm empty. A forgotten me.
The me you drenched and torn apart.
You took ME away but I still stayed and endured the pain
all awhile you emptied me.
When i was full i once believed you made me complete
now i know i simply gave myself away I loved you too much
You love me to less now I'm trapped in confusion looking for the rest
of me. So for everyone hoping to love me
pass me by I am an abstract version of me with heavy baggage
handbags clutches full of distrust ,suitcases full of worry
hurt and pain bags so full
while my soul is an empty hole.
One of which you once made whole
but I am no longer concrete
just an abstract version of me
I am empty. What have you done to me?
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Tick tock tinkle time's
slowly slipping softly
away always acting accurately
sounder sough sounds
each eager executed
hour.
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Hidden In A prison of lies ducking and dodging
the critics that throw lies eyes peel skin and
makes you question what's with in
Sin regret doubt is what we all know
try to lie and it shows more
Fantasy is what we want but reality is what we need
Reality is confused for what you wish it to be
So We try To...Wish your eyes close let go and release
What everybody already knows.
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You was the one who had the key to my heart
You were loving me from the start
But after loving you know I see that was as real as love
could be
But know I'm stuck left to decide is the love still there are
did it die
I'll never ask you is it still true
Because even if you gave me the wrong answer I'd still love you
So why I'm I stuck to decide for you
Could you just tell me if it's still true?
I guess your ego does something special for you
But Damn why I cant leave this alone
Emotionally and physically I can tell something still going on
Dreams Persuay me to think of you Thoughts Dictate my mind
Im thinking if Im with you then these things will subside
Does your ego love you as much as do? Im guessing not!
Your ego can kiss my butt cause I love your whether were
together or not
So let him know you love me instead
Cause you know that I know that OUR love isn't really DEAD.
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