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Lexi Thomas Poem
Light me up like a cigarette
You bring up memories I can't forget
I loved you, gave you everything I could
And in the end, you misunderstood
The things I do for you
The things I'd say
Honey I'd gotten so used to living that way
I can't shake you
Like a bad taste in my mouth
You're bad for me boy
This is gonna head south
Your love is a drug
Your mind is a mess
I can't quit you
You're worse than meth
So believe me when I say
That this isnt the end
Because there's no use
In trying to pretend
That you didn't love me
Because you did
Oh please
Who am I trying to kid?
You're no good for me
I'm no good for you
But what else
Are two messed up people to do?
Your love is a drug
Your mind is a mess
I'm more mucked up than you
But I digress
The things you say
Get to me so
Even when you hurt me
I keep coming back for more
I can't help myself
I lose control
When I'm around you
I'm not myself anymore
Your love is a drug
Your mind is a mess
Baby I can't quit you
God, you're worse than death
So believe me when I say
That I don't want this to end
Because you're like
My personal brand of heroin
Believe me when I say
I'm okay
Even though I'm not
Cause when I'm around you
You make my skin burn hot
Your love was a drug
My mind is now a mess
Christ, get out of my life
You’re gonna cause my death.
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Lexi Thomas Poem
Pressing your lips
Against my own
It feels so right
Even if it's so wrong
Too young to know
Too young to understand
I thought I was grown
Could make decisions on my own
You took advantage
Of my weakened mind
And preyed on other lovers
Time after time
I let myself believe
That just for one moment
You truly loved me
But boy, was I ever wrong
And here you are, well,
In one of my poems
You hurt me
Worse than anyone I've known
You let me believe in the lie
We together had sewn
The familiar tingle
Of your touch
God, baby,
It was almost too much
Too young to know
Too young to understand
I thought I was grown
Could make decisions on my own
You took advantage
Of my weakened mind
And preyed on other lovers
Time after time
Was your love a lie?
Was it all a dream?
Did I imagine
The whole thing?
The way you hurt me,
It was almost unreal
Babe, these wounds
Still need time to heal
You keep coming back
Wanting more
And again and again
I open up, like a goddamn sore
I bleed for you
You don't bleed for me
Oh babe, please
Just set me free
Because I was
Too young to know
Too naive to understand
That this situation
Had got out of hand
For many years
I loved you
And let you take advantage
While you still preyed
On other lovers
Time and time again.
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Lexi Thomas Poem
Those three words
Are a death sentence
Enough to send
Anyone in a panic
I said them too soon
And I didn't mean them
But you still sat there
And received ‘em
I don't love you, baby,
I never did.
So kill me now,
Cause this is it.
I love you means nothing
If you're saying it to someone you don't love
All you give them
Is a lifetime
Of pain and suffering
Now tell me,
Which do you pick of the above?
Choose wisely, because
Pain comes easy
And goes so quick
But suffering tends
To stay and stick
I don't love you baby,
I never did.
So kill me now
Cause this is it.
Believe me when I say
You can kill someone with three words
Because ‘I love you’
Is the last words he ever heard
He didn't see it coming
The knife to his heart
Not literally, no,
His life had to stop before it could start
I left him
In a pool of his own soul
In the process of trying to
Repair my own
I didn't say loving me was easy
Cause it never is
So give up on me now
Before you get killed
Because love kills,
That's a fact
And you should never love
Without tact
I don't love you, baby,
I never did
So kill me now,
Cause this is it.
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Lexi Thomas Poem
How do I say
How I feel inside?
Inside I feel numb, Nothing is there too,
I try to feel something, be it with cigarettes or booze
Neither helps, though I try
I can never reach that goddamn high
I’ve made it clear
To those I love
That I wish to be six feet below
Instead of above
Feeling is difficult
When you feel Nothing
Sometimes, even the strongest emotions
Are pain and suffering
It’s all part of my illness
So they’ve told me
But that doesn’t change the fact
That I feel like I’m drowning
Pull me out
Before it’s too late….
It’s already settled, I’m doomed to my fate
Nothing has taken me, deep within its static grasp
I knew that I was never meant to last.
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Lexi Thomas Poem
Empty promises
Empty pill bottles
Drive fast, hit the throttle
You're an addict darling,
Let's face it.
It's the start
And you're not gonna make it.
Run from your problems
Run from your disease
Run from the things
That make you weak
Run from the voices
The demons in your mind
The ones you're so
Reluctant to hide.
Deny deny deny
That's your motto
Drown your sorrows and doubts
In your precious whiskey bottle
Cover up the pain
Cover up the strain
One more hit
Then you're good again
You find ways to distract yourself
From the pain
You overdose
And get drunk again
Nicotine
Can only go so far
Before your body
Fills up with tar
Your heart is black
Your soul is gone
But you don't care, you can't feel,
You just wanna have fun
Poor creature
Who hurt you so?
It doesn't matter
Just hurry up and go
Run from your problems
Run from your disease
Run from the things
That make you weak
Run from the voices
The demons in your mind
The ones you're so
Reluctant to hide
Seek refuge
In that bottomless hole
Of despair
Hopelessness
And never ending pain
You don't care
Cause you're floating on air
You got your fix
Poor thing, you're so sick
No one can help you now
You're too far gone
In fact, my dear
You'll be dead
By the end of this song
So
Run from your problems
Run from your disease
Run from the things
That make you weak
Run from the voices
The demons in your mind
Yes those voices,
Because, honey,
They refused to hide.
Empty promises
Empty pill bottles
You drove fast, you hit the throttle
You were an addict, darling
And let's face it.
It's the end, honey.
And you, well, you didn't make it.
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Lexi Thomas Poem
I hurt you in ways
That words can't explain
But I'll say it
I'm sorry
Again and again
I did love you
That much was true
But in the end
I couldn't see through
The pain I felt
About someone else
I took it out on you
And that wasn't fair
Time passes by,
In colors and shapes,
Things got brighter,
Then turned to grey.
You were the colors
The sounds of my life
But in the end
My love was deadlier than a knife.
I hurt you, baby
In more ways than one
Not even psychology can explain
The things I've done
If only you knew
How much I hated
Putting you down
And making you feel degraded
I was abusive, I know now
Always making you frown
I put you through hell boy,
And I can't excuse that
But she made you happy
There's no doubt about it
I loved you, it's true
But not as much as I should've
Had I made myself better
And asked you to stay
Then maybe,
Just maybe
You would’ve.
Time passes by,
In colors and shapes
Things got brighter,
Then turned to grey.
You were the colors,
The sounds of my life.
But in the end,
My love was deadlier than a knife.
Forgive my transgressions
My past differences
I'm not the same person
I was when we met.
I've changed for the better,
Cleaned myself up
And in that self-loathing rut
I'm no longer stuck.
Time passed by,
In colors and shapes,
Things are brighter
After turning grey
You were the sounds,
The colors of my life
But in the end, I knew
My love wasn't right.
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I remembered how you felt
Your alabaster skin against mine
The arctic blue of your eyes
Will always be imprinted in the back of my mind
Your lingering touch, the way you sang,
It made my heart soar
It made me feel complete again
When you left
You took a piece of me with you
You didn’t even look back
You just kept on going
It tore me apart, love
More than you’ll ever know
And I hope one day you’ll see this
And give me back my soul.
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