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The Loop

(This is my first poem about myself, please comment.)

I wake up every single day
telling myself everything is okay.
I laugh, joke and smile
but that will only last a while.

Then I get home, and take off the mask
in a feeling of self identity i long to bask.
Everything I do is just a distraction
because i know i'll never have any self-satisfaction

As I lay down alone in my room alone
a i can wish is that i have a clone.
Maybe they can live a better life
where they don't end everyday with a knife.

The clock goes off so i put the mask on again
I look in the mirror and see a woman,
I'm sure that's what everyone can see
but that's not who I'm supposed to be.

I smile, laugh and joke
it makes me want to choke
No, what I said was a lie
It makes me want to die.

My life is just like a clock
rewinding everyday, tic-tock
and again I walk down the same path
which always ends in a bloodbath.
 
I keep telling myself to go a different route
but I don't and it makes me want to shout.
Day after day I go back there,
How much more must I bear?

Today is the day I finally learned.
At that corner is where I turned.
In the end there is no bloodshed,
so maybe i won't end up dead.

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My Dad

Today is the day that I finally change,
some may find me a little strange.
But you don't even know who I really am
so take all your thoughts and scram.

I went out and go my hair cut
I changed my style,too, somewhat.
Nobody knew why I really did this
at least not until I told my sis.

That night we stayed up and talked
than she said,"I'm really not shocked."
it was at that moment I needed to tell my Dad
all I could hope was he wouldn't be mad.

I talked to my Dad face to face
I felt he would see me as a disgrace.
We talked for quite a while
than he looked at me with a smile.

My Dad and I hugged each other,
and decided not to tell my mother.
The tears stopped rolling down my cheek
but that only lasted for a week.

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Witness

How can you sit there without a care in the world?
you see how others treat him for being "different"
What exactly does it mean to be different?
Am I different because I'm not the same as you?
Or are you different because your not the same as me?

You worry about what others will do to you
Because of this so called "difference"
Because you are afraid you don't stop what they do
How can you sit there like it doesn't affect you?
I can guess how you think in this situation 

If I don't do what they do I'm not to blame.
I don't verbally or physically attack like them.
How am I to blame, too, in this act?
I just sat there, I didn't do anything
If I wasn't involved, why do I feel regret?

THAT, what you just said is, is exactly my point
It's because you weren't involved you have regrets
It's because you sat there and didn't do anything
It's because you didn't help you are also to blame
It doesn't matter if you were the bully or a witness they are both the same

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Them

When I was little I was told to be who I am
By my
Mother
Father
Pastor
Grandmother
Grandfather
And counselor
Who never told me what that really meant
I don't understand it until I got
Older
Bolder
Colder
Sadder
Madder
And shattered 
Into pieces when I was told who to be, not who I am
I listened to my
Parents
Aunt
Uncles
Grandparents
Teachers
And guardians
Who couldn't even see how I felt
The ones who couldn't see my
Cuts
Bruises
Scabs
Tears
Wraps
And scars
Which haven't gone away that added everyday
I thought about
Suicide 
Hydrogen peroxide
Homocide
A genocide
And how to hide
From the word where no one really knew me
I decided to be me 
Impeccable
Musician
Maniacal
Abstracted 
Laid-back
and Enthusiastic  
About starting a new day in a new life.

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Change

This morning is the start of a new life
Life which had changed so much
Much more than the past 16 years
Years which are still to come
Come to school at 6am for band
Band that is a family
Family will either accept you or not
Not listening to how you feel
Feel about yourself
Yourself is who you want to change 
Change that happened that day
Day that I will cherish forever 
Forever is how long I plan to be me
Me who is defined by 'ME' and not you.