Best Poems Written by Dacia Schneiderman

Again and Again

It's that time of the night again

It's the time of the night where everyone else I know is asleep and I am awake

I think about the day we met

I think about the day you left

I think about every moment we had that I loved

And every moment that I hated

You had me wrapped around your finger

You had me on a leash like a dog

Everyone said we were whipped

But I disagree

Is it called being whipped when you are simply doing the person you love a favor

Or when you hold open the door

Or when you go out of your way to make them happy?

I don't think so

I call that love

You had me in love

You trapped yourself in my heart

Never to escape

I try to set you free but the lock is too strong

Your words echo in my mind

I hear you say "I love you"

Then I hear you say "I hate you"

I feel the knife slowly being shoved into my chest

I can feel my body collapsing

Those words begin to loop

I love you

I hate you

I love you 

I hate you

Which is it?!

Do you love me or do you hate me

And just like the words in my head 

We are running on a loop

We keep coming back again and again 

And then we leave again and again

It's like we want to let go but we can't

I have made everyone believe that I could never love you again

I have made everyone believe that you are the tire tracks behind my car

My parents hate you

My friends hate you

Everyone I know hates you

But I don't

I could never hate you

Because you see

You still have me tied on that leash

You still have me wrapped around your finger

But see I'm naive

You could tell me you loved me and I'd believe it

Because you told me you loved me for a year and I trusted what you said

And now you know

My brain is a bipolar cycle

I love you 

I hate you

My brain is stuck on that loop

That never ending loop that makes me believe that I'm done with you

That I hate you

But I don't 

Cause see it comes right back

Telling me that I don't hate you 

That I need you

But see I don't

Because you are just the guy I see in the hall way

The one I pass everyday

You are the guy I had a past with

But we could never have what we had before

And I think that it's time that we both saw that

Before we get hurt again and again.

Copyright © Dacia Schneiderman | Year Posted 2015