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Chyleen Lopez Poem
She knows she isn't crazy
She knows what she sees....
She binge Eats to make it all go
away....
Yea, her stress....
She becomes depressed.
She can't have a long social
relationship because of her
mood swings...
She can't control herself.
She becomes someone else.
She forgets what she says,
But remembers her actions.
How come she can't get past
them?
She's sweet,
She's caring,
But when she is triggered....
You want to just leave her.
But it's okay...
She's use to it.
She is scared of being alone
She's terrified of going on...
There's nothing she can do.
But the ones who love her the
most,
Will stand by her.....
But please, never get too close.
Copyright © Chyleen Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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Chyleen Lopez Poem
You let me fall so easily,
For a moment in time,
I really thought you caught me.
I was flying in your arms,
But it was all a dream
None was reality.
I'm trapped in a cage
I'm a monster.
I have a pathetic smile on my face
& it's all for nothing,
There is nothing here to conquer.
You built me up
Just to break me down
I put all my trust in you..
And you threw it all out.
& for a moment there
I believed you cared
The reality is,
You were never there.
I'm trapped in this cage
I'm a wild thing.
& it's disappointing that I let you in,
But it was all for nothing
I just don't understand
It's all so sickening
I miss when you were fake
I miss when you were my Ken
It's all so disgusting
I miss the way you held me
I miss almost everything
I'm trapped in this place,
there is no escape....
I'm a beast trying to leave.
& it's so ugly how I can put it all away,
Everything you've done to me.
I can only project the good memories & the good things.
I erase the abuse
I erase the rape,
Pretend me and you were loving each other happily...
I'm trapped in a cage
And there is no way out,
I'm trapped in this place
& I wanna know who are you now?
Who is the guy I thought I loved?
Copyright © Chyleen Lopez | Year Posted 2014
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Chyleen Lopez Poem
These emotions are deep,
And they are killing me.
These emotions are
psychologically making
me crazy.
Copyright © Chyleen Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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Chyleen Lopez Poem
I want to be sober,
But I need a drink.
I don't want to be awake,
But I can't sleep.
I just want to forget
I want it all out of my head
All of these memories
They all live but I rather them die instead.
When will it end?
Why can't it stop?
I think that I have suffered quite enough.
Just give me a break
Let me cover my face
Let me hide
Please let me breathe.
I don't want to be sober,
I just want to drink away the pain
I just want to fall asleep,
So it can all just go away
I am filled with regret,
Because I was the one who let you in.
All of these battle scars,
Are just a reminder of what you did.
But I'm gonna stay sober,
because I am bigger than this.
Copyright © Chyleen Lopez | Year Posted 2015
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Chyleen Lopez Poem
I'm always telling you how I'm
feeling....
Why don't you kiss me?
I'm always telling you what I'm
wanting....
For you to kiss me.. :*
I want to feel your sweet,
gentle lips....
I want our lips to intertwine...
I want to know that your mine
Kiss Me,
Show me what your feeling,
Show me what your wanting...
Unless.... Me is not in those
categories :-/
I want you to open up to me
I want you to know that we will
be
Kiss Me :*
Copyright © Chyleen Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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I'm not your fragile girl anymore
I'm not the girl you shoved and pushed out the door,
I know I never did it before,
But I also know my first time shouldn't have been forced
I will not let this bring me down,
I'll cry about it for a while
But I'll get back up on my feet,
And find my way back around.
I will stand tall,
Never let another cowardly man let me fall.
I'll be hanging on to the same strong piece of thread that held me for so long before
I'm not the girl I was before
I have so much more strength and am able to open up new doors,
I know I never experienced sex before,
But one thing I do know,
Is that it should never have been forced.
Copyright © Chyleen Lopez | Year Posted 2014
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Chyleen Lopez Poem
I know it's hard to believe
That your the one for me
You say you want a girl
Without perfection
Who shows affection
Someone you could call your world.
Well I don't wanna be conceded
But baby I'll be honest,
I'm that one for you,
My love for you is true....
You may not believe me
But baby I'm sorry,
For not showing you
That you were my only.
My one and only.
Oh baby.
I am so sorry.
Now please listen to me
So you can see,
That everything I am saying
Is not a lie,
Oh baby please try,
Try to convince yourself
To see what is good in me
To see what I can bring.
Baby please understand that
I'm sorry.
Copyright © Chyleen Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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You broke my heart
You tore it apart.
You left me alone
You left me undone.
But you didn't care.
You loved me,
Supposedly.
You cared for me,
Sure, that I would never believe.
If you really did,
Why am I broken.?
You lied to me,
About everything.
You "cried" for me
When I left you,
But those weren't real tears.
You just needed someone to clear the loneliness.
You were selfish and cruel
You always desired everything for you.
I'm broken
I'm left unspoken.
Copyright © Chyleen Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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I feel like I'm all alone
Feeling like such a no one.
Al I do is Cry.
All I wanna do is hide.
It's taking too much of me.
Tearing me apart
Breaking me down,
It's killing me now.
It's stealing everything.
There's a lot,
That I didn't know
Somethings I wish was to be
Left unknown.
It's pulling me under.
It's time to get over,
The fact that I was left alone,
Thrown, to the curb.
Hurt with no words.
It's taking too much from me
I feel so dumb,
My body is numb.
You got up and left
The person I thought you loved.
You Took All Of Me,
Maybe Too Much Of Me.
Copyright © Chyleen Lopez | Year Posted 2012
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It happened six months ago
I've been trying to let it go
I was naive
I was stupid
I tried not to think through it
I didn't want it to happen
But either way it did.
And I know,
That I should've said something
sooner
But I didn't.
Some can call it what they
please
But it's only one word legally.
I said no as he crept
I said stop as he slipped,
I started to bleed,
I was hurt.
I cried through the nights
Not knowing why I feel this
way,
I didn't want to think it was
rape.
Copyright © Chyleen Lopez | Year Posted 2013
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