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Lucy Campbell Poem
you are controlling what i do
you are controlling whom i see
to justify your actions
you try to use jealousy
your'e making me feel guilty
pretend i am to blame
you look at me with gestures
and you know that i'm afraid
i am facing a huge decline
in the way that i live
the children and i suffer
as i have lack of things to give
i have no access to money
as you hide it all away
then you'll go out binging
and then disappear for days
you grew up in a violent home
abused as a young child
to you this is normal
but none of it's worthwhile
you may well of thought
that acting tough was right
we don't want to get hurt
and we're not looking for a fight
why must you have your orders obeyed
you have many highs and lows
one moment your'e so loving
then in a blink your anger shows
your ideas they are traditional
about what a real man should be
this surely isn't right
we're a family you see
we are imprisoned without trial
a hopeless dream of escape
i go on with false smiles
my happiness i fake
there are secrets that i keep
a silence i maintain
this is all i seem to know
it's how i ease my pain
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Lucy Campbell Poem
disintergrating with time
a downfall i have tasted
our lives have been overturned
and too much time is wasted
a family brought to extinction
disrupted house of gloom
so shattered and washed out
a feeling that we're doomed
dismantled in a moment
i'm suddenly caving in
collapsing into an empty crevice
a darkness to begin
we've been torn up by the roots
devastated us with grief
shadowed by a whole eclipse
something beyond belief
causing so much unhappiness
afflicting us with pain
destroying every trace of
a beautiful burning flame
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Lucy Campbell Poem
i'm looking for a perfect nowhere
so i can save you from the dark
to make you complete and unspoilt
improve your very soul,to make a skilful heart
to lift you from your bodily pain
erasing all the distaste to bliss
a desire to teach you truth
to grant a warm, reasurring kiss
a visible pulse,no unreasonable wrongs
for your grief it overwhelms me
and i know you burn deep insde
i'll do my best to set you free
much time has elapsed now
to abide in what should not be real
but i promise to ease your fall
as you sink silently it's you i will steal
away from all your inner evil
replace you with something pure
so natural and untainted
and for you to fear no more
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Lucy Campbell Poem
black cat
in the night
silhouetted
in the light
black cat
eyes of green
reflected
in the stream
black cat
cross my path
elegance
he does have
black cat
goes to sleep
his memory
i do keep
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Lucy Campbell Poem
inside my specially prepared womb
you're now firmly attached to me
now you're embedded
you'll come everywhere with me
here you'll be well nourished
developing from just one cell
i wonder what you look like
only my book can tell
just shorter than my eyelash
you're forming and growing fast
your tiny brain begins to grow
only a month has passed
the size of my little fingernail
tiny limb buds appear
the link strenghens between us
your features become more clear
now the size of my thumbnail
you begin to take more shape
your heart beats with enough force
the blood through your body it takes
an inch long, still smaller than my nose
blood vessels can be seen through your skin
your bones begin to harden
though you're still relatively thin
you have a more mature appearance
fingers and toes start to be defined
although i'm unable to feel it
tiny movements are being made by your spine
you now exercise your muscles
as you continue to quickly grow
your brain and muscles are co-ordinating
so you can kick and curl your toes
now four inches long
you've began to grow some hair
although you're almost properly formed
for birth you must prepare
weighing a hundred grams
the beating of my heart you hear
you listen to my stomach rumbling
sounds outside become more clear
nearly ten inches long
i can feel you softly move
increasing so much in strength
you are now beginning to prove
your eyes have opened for the first time
your body is growing fast
fat stores have began to accumulate
six months now have passed
although your skin is still wrinkled
it now becomes more pink
you're able to tell light from dark
now you're able to blink
in a curled up position
chin resting on your chest
arms and legs are now crossed
you are moving less
over one foot long
your skin is soft and smooth
nails are fully grown
you have little room to move
all your organs are now fully mature
you'll breathe your first breath soon
as you are fully developed and soon to leave my womb
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Lucy Campbell Poem
i am drifting, just moving aimlessly
by a single current of air
floating through an emptiness
without purpose, without care
my mind it contains nothing
my body has been displaced
submerged in an arid desert
i could vanish without a trace
but would you actually notice
that i was no longer here
alone in a solitary wonder
an awe of tempting fear
i am unresponsive and cold
hearing a calm, soothing voice
an absence of disturbance
she must understand my choice
a kind, beautiful woman
her wings shine with pure gold
she's leading me to safety
her hand is there to hold
a narrow beam of light
invites me on my way
i give rise to the desire
she needs not to persuade
this could be extraordinary
as i enter the unknown
i'm going onto better things
and it's time for me to go
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Lucy Campbell Poem
battering is a pattern
of power and control
it begins with a threat
or punching the wall
in all of the cultures
most common of the victims
are the woman and the child
how so sickening
the trivial contacts
which further escalate
to serious attacks
or culminates
in sexual abuse
and unwanted activity
a huge social problem
in many varieties
so nice to outsiders
pleasant and charming
but behind closed doors
alarm bells are warning
establishing power
controlling another
a male privelage
from bruising to murder
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Lucy Campbell Poem
i suppose it's ok to imagine
to produce my own ideas
a mental picture of what isn't present
a perception that's really not clear
my inner feelings are shadowed
yet so profound in my mind
the most beautiful structure created
superior i think you will find
so appealing to my sences
an image engraved inside
a craving for you that's painful
with a heart that continues to cry
a dream of certain qualities
so capable of being believed
an overwhelming dreamlike state
temporarily can be achieved
you arouse my curiosity
a mysterious warmth revealed
my only solitary companion
our secret to keep concealed
provided you promise to stay
i will resume to yearn for you
to be able to captivate a moment
never to fade or be removed
it is almost supernatural
something i cannot explain
some strange producing effect
thats seeping through my veins
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Lucy Campbell Poem
i find myself dazed with magic
but in a moment smudged with tears
to be torn in an instant
revert to all my fears
a lonely echo in my mind
and so granted no reward
no opportunity to re-examine
rejecting to move me onward
i disappear to fade away somewhere
paralysed by all of you
deprived of something i wanted
yet so real, a quantity so new
nothing should be so sombre
you must generate deep inside
to live a little to appreciate
that innocence you cannot hide
we can devour our inner unkind
and embrace each with warmth
disable all the dread and fright
and tame the ghosts that haunt
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Lucy Campbell Poem
my surroundings have no meaning now
in the midst of nothingness
my aggression is aroused somehow
confused about nothing else
a prison of hate increasing
this gap needs to be filled
an uncontrollable emptiness
lies in my head still
i have been exposed to all
as i hang my head in shame
helpless,dependant, yet unique
an individual in every way
i am unable to come to terms with
my own aggressive drive
ill turn this pressuare inwards
it seems on this i thrive
i cant escape bereavemant
ill heap this blame upon myself
im no longer fit to live
recognise my cry for help
how can i admit my own anger
when the words are hard to find
convinced i am a failure
to you so damn unkind
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