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In the dark days, everything goes away. But the Pain will stay. If only I could cure
the worlds sickest. Take the pain and make me the weakest. Out there
somewhere MY dreams will be filled. Since I’ve changed, since I stopped taking
those Pills. Everything revolved around me, but now I’m not so friendly. More pills
to ease the pain, more pills to take me away into lightest days.
The Lightest Days were we all roam and play, the sick and pain will
go away. Better than ever. Nothing to Level, but still the bumpy road is in the past.
My life was hard, my chances are far. But I’ve made it, last into the days of the
past.
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I sit here shaking in this warm water
The pain has come, for my life to barter.
Should i do it, let everything go.
I grab that razor and never let go.
I tilt my head back and take a breath
I soon feel the pain inside my chest.
My heart is pounding faster and faster.
I think in my head now I\'m the master.
Cutting and cutting away that pain
as the blood drips down, my life slowly fades.
I drop the blade, and watch it fade, into the
Bath of blood that i have made.
Everythings gone, my life to.
into that red liquid, that makes me and you.
i am now free of all that pain, and all the suffering that never went away.
So now i lay here in my Bath of blood, looking down in at the soapy suds. Was it
a dream or was it a fantasy.
I look at my wrists....and they still bleed.
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i let life pass me by
even though each day i cry
holding my life deep inside
the pain is never going to pass by.
even though you lied
its not going to change my mind.
I love you so much, nothing will change that.
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I sit here thinking that this is the last thing ill write in my life. But is this all worth it.
Is it too late? I did it, I made that cut. I took those pills. And now my life is spilled
out on the floor. I sit here holding that cloth over that cut, I’m tying to get it to stop
bleeding, I would look but I scared to see the damage that I did. As I grow fainter
and lighter I’ll know that I did the damage that I wanted to do. Its only time now
before we know. The cloth now is getting heaver with blood and my head is
getting a taste of the codeine. The key are now spotted with the blood from the
tips of my fingers. I’m now alone in this house. No one to claim me in till the
morning. By then I’d have sent out that warning. I’m now feeling faint and week,
dizzy and lost and confused. I’m scared, what have I done? I feel as if death has
won. The blood is running down my leg from that cloth that covered it up. I’m
going to go wash it now in the tub. So in till we meet again.
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Everytime i talk to you. im happy. But when im not, i feel like a part of me is
missing. Im so gald that we've met. I can't wait intill we see eachother. Im lost
without you. Im gald i found you. You everything to me. i care about you so much
and you know that. I write about you can you see that. i just don't know whats
holding me back. i just want to know how you feel about this. i've read it all and its
touched me. I feel so lost. but yet i've found that path leading me to the right
direction. You funny and you make me laugh. Im so use to being sorry but you,
don't care. I don't care. When we talk, im just there thats all i want. i want to be
there. for you. but that question is...Can i?
can i, over time? what do you think?
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Autumn Bleeds deep into September
Octobers Fear is healed by November
Winter Starts late in December
In till January is all I remember
Months of Beauty cold and dry
The rain falls down and turns into ice
The leaves change and the trees go bare
During winter it’s hard not to stare
White snow is on the ground
Snow men standing can you hear the bells?
Ice is frozen over the lake, just like
Frosting on a cake.
The deep nights lit up by lights.
It’s the best time to see the sights
Cold snow on the ground soon it’ll be gone along with the bells.
Spring will come and the storms will plunge.
That’s when summer break begun.
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im scared to say that i like you
i really like, don't know what to do.
Will you care or freak out
just like everyother girl i ask out.
but we can just be friends
someday we can be at both ends.
I want to see you, is that ok?
Maybe christmas or a sooner day
But were would i stay, when im away?
Will you parents like too!
Just as much as i like you?
Im so nervous i can't think
I just want to see you and fix that broken link.
thats part of my heart that i don't want to sink
deep into that hole of darkness
that hole of pain, that leave a stain
deep inside my heart
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its only been a week or two
Since i started chatting with you.
We've opened up to one another
Some day i hope we can see each other.
I take friends very seriously
even though many are not like me.
I care about everyone i know.
Even when i found out about Pleurisy
my thought of you sank deep into me.
all i can wonder is how your doing.
i hope someday god will give you healing.
So now were talking having a good time.
You don't even im writing this ryme.
But when you read this you will know
that i care about you more than you know.
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I don't know what to say,
i read that message and it ruined my day.
Im so speechless, so confined
i don't know, theres so much going through my mind
im now weak inside, my heart has sank down the line
nervous, and anger fill my mind but i don't know how to find
that feeling i want its not bad at all,
im gald you told me, but now i just fall
down and around wondering what should i do,
all i know is that i love you.
this won't change a thing between us.
and i got to see you that is a must!
i personaly think that it doens't matter
your age, even your stature doens't really factor
into what we have, i really like you, but i feel so bad.
i'll get over it, because i want to be with you,
and when i come see you, you'll know that whole truth.
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I sit here chilling in this room
my lust of love will decide for you
which way i will go
and if i let go of this rope
I want to hang on to you
which will my like dream come ture
your smile keeps my happy
your voice smoothens my mind
your eyes giltter with love
i just don't want to misjudge your sign.
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