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A father that who was never there that I cried lonely tears of missing a man that
didn’t even want me that a man threw me on streets in the rain or a shadow and
left me that he didn’t even know me or understand me born into a world full of
confusion pain and lonely tears wonder why a man that I wanted to be like so
much didn’t even want me that it seemed like everybody had a father around me
except me that my mother was trying so hard to be that father figure that the
words she was speaking wouldn’t even come to me that I was in streets hustle
looking for a father figure to but life in me that the person that I really love went to
the pearly gates and left me
Because on my block most of the boys didn’t have a father and they father didn’t
have a father so they on the block hustling rocks selling them to there own
mother that the street life was the only life for me that my mother cried lonely
nights wonder if I am going to walk threw the door that night or scared she might
see me on channel ten news that night I wonder night after night what did I do
blaming myself for things that my mother went threw crying myself to sleep
asking god to just pray for me never understood why a man said he loved but
never was there that man would call me and say I am going to pick you up and
never show up
That my friends never had a father so they slapped there females around and
beat them for no reason but they had reason why because they never had that
father to show them how to love there female and not beat on them that growing
up seeing your mother beening slapped around knowing you cant do nothing
about it thats a struggle
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I'm here coming to the Lord for the things
That I have done for the sins that I made
And done I am getting on my knees for yah
Lord tell yah to pray for me sometime I
Feel lost trying to make it to the top I
Tell yah lord come pray for me.
Sometimes I can't sleep telling myself
What life got to do with me
Tell yah lord come pray for me
My moms always tell me to get
Some sleep but
I'm always dreaming about
people dieing on me
I wouldn't know what to
Do if someone I loved die
On Me
Telling yah lord come pray for me
My life would crumble in front of me
I wouldn't be able to complete the
Goals set our for me
I'll be praying to the Lord like
Why she died on me
Telling yah Lord to pray for me
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God took you from me and
I never felt the same
With you not here I felt
Like a lame
Then I cry and It just dont
Feel the same
God took your hand
And brought you home
Sometimes I pray and
It just dont feel the same
I get scared so I walk away
Then I here you say
Dont ever be afraid
So the only thing I can say
Good bye Grandma Carrie Lee
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As I look into the eyes of the thing that suppose to be watching over me the angel
eyes was as blue as the sky but as cold as ice every time I looked into his eyes a
vibe ran up my spine
It was like he took the joy from me I knew that his heart was filled full of lonely
tears, sorrow, and lonely nights I wonder night after night was this thing a part of
me and indeed it was the other side of me such a side has never been reached
by me
It even scared me that this was part of me it was a shadow that I couldn't run
from cause it would always be there I wonder why god couldn't have sent me a
happy angel not this angel cause this angel was like something I would never
want to be or see
I saw him everywhere in my dreams the crossroads of dreams and reality it was
like he took the life from me, but I didn't know that it was death that I had already
be dead. That he had met me at the crossroads
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As the last tear falls from my eyes I saw the real vision or the truth
That everybody was trying to get me to see clearly I felt like my
Trust was gone and everything was a lie like a real good dream
Dreams of us having the perfect life but I know it wasn’t real something
That I was trying to touch but wasn’t touchable like air couldn’t feel it
Like love something that was invisible but hit me hard and ruff felt like a
Muhammad Ali K.O. punch I couldn’t do anything but fall like I was
Paralyzed from the neck down and I was the punching bad looking like
Emmit Till lefted confused with no conception of felling anything
Just wanted to know why??? That was the big question to me why???
A answer that’s all I wanted a answer I couldn’t get but dearly
Wanted one The perfect person in my eyes but in hers I was another
Nigga another guy cause I thought she was different a new style
New smell new fragrance but it was the same I was a fool in my
Own game a game that I play for many years and I had lost
I was defeated and it made me realize what was the
Real truth that she lefted me she was gone
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As I lie wiping the last tear from my eye
I am here lying in place that is unsafe
Misunderstood, hurting and crying myself to sleep
Wishing of dreams of a better life
That I know I wish would come true
Hurting in places that can’t be healed
My feelings are more and more getting drilled
Hurting so much that I lost the feeling to love
That I falling in hole that I can’t climb out of
That I hiding behind shadow of fake feeling
That I have been hurting so much that I don’t even know myself
That I wish I could see the light in hole that I wish I could climb out of
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