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Zay Kenter Poem
What have you turned me into?
I was okay then you made me into the devil.
I'm not one to get angry I'm not the one to get upset.
You've pissed me off so much that I'm using your own game against you and I'm winning.
Your at me feet begging me for things you cant get.
You've awakened the storm in me.
You are begging for mercy from the devil you have made.
You dew so many lines and there is no redemption.
I'm an echo you made I'm the shadow you feel when you're alone.
I'm going to drain you of everything you have and there is nothing you can do.
I was calm then you lit the match and now your burn in the fire you've created.
You sold your sole you fed the flame and now you walk away.
I'm the curse you're running from.
I'm the one you're hiding from.
You had a smile but I see the showdowns behind you with sharp teeth smiling.
You drew the line and now you have crossed it more then once,
and now your crying for mercy from the devil you had made.
You drew the line and now there is no redemption.
I'm the shadow that you feel watching.
your burning in the fire you have created.
there is no redemption and I will no longer show mercy.
You have lit a match that you cannot control.
Now you're begging for mercy but I'll show you none.
You are no longer in control of the devil you started to play games with.
Mark my words you will regret playing with me
You will regret lighting a fire in me
You will regret crossing me.
Copyright © zay kenter | Year Posted 2025
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Zay Kenter Poem
The night is dark and unforgiving.
I tried to forgive you.
I was even thinking of giving you another chance like you asked for.
There is nothing left for you to say to me and there is nothing left for me to say to you.
The night is dark when your sad/alone and have no one to be there for you.
The night is my get away.
My get away from you and all the memories we have together.
The memories you have already let go of.
You never loved me anyways.
I try to let go of what we had because it want real anyways.
I tried to see the good in you but I don't think there is any left in you.
I tried to give you my heart and you crushed it like a kid would with a lolly pop.
The night sky makes me sad but it also makes me happy.
The stars are shining in a way I could never.
The stars are the beauty in the dark.
The stars are my new found hope.
The dark of the night sky can be lonely if you cant see the beauty but sometimes it never changes the way you hope it will.
The dark of the night sky is what keeps me going.
The dark of the night sky is my calming place.
Copyright © zay kenter | Year Posted 2025
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Zay Kenter Poem
I'm broken I'm not okay.
I hate myself.
I try to love but I can't.
tell me I need to find self love
It's hard to do that when my whole life I've been put down
I'm having a good day and can't help but feel sad.
that's not normal.
I'm scared to lose everyone.
I'm scared I'm going to be left alone.
I can't do this.
I'm terrified and I don't even know of what.
My feelings? that I'm loving someone again?
I'm broken on the inside and no one can see it.
I tell myself that I'm okay but I'm not.
I'm dead on the inside.
all I feel is sadness and depression.
I'm drifting I don't know who I am anymore.
my fight with depression,
feeling like I'm going to be abandoned everyday is getting worse
I have so many people who care about me
but yet all I feel is sad and lonely and I cant deal with this pain much longer.
I need someone to hold me and tell me that I'm okay
I need someone to hold me is that so hard to ask for?
Why is it that I'm always there for others;
then when I need someone physically here for me I don't have a single person?
GOD DAMN IT I JUST NEED SOMEONE please.
I'm so tired of holding everything in all the time.
you don't know the pain I feel.
i wasted my summer on a love that wasn't real and still stay by the dudes side.
the pain I feel is unreal to someone who doesn't know me.
I'm broken I'm falling apart It's the story of my life.
I'm dead and that's okay.
I'm sinking under water, no not water blood I'm choking.
I'm choking on all the pain I feel inside.
i'll hold you even when I'm down.
I hide all my pain under a mask of stupidity and bravery.
you tell me I'm strong but I don't feel strong.
I hide my feelings.
I don't show what I feel I put on a mask and call it a day.
I use the drugs to heal the pain but it just makes it worse when I'm sober.
I've been clean for almost a month now.
I don't have withdraws never did
I knew I'd never get addicted
only to the feeling of being happy
I wish I could take back everything negative in my life but I can't
I wish I could be happy without drugs or alcohol.
I wish that I wasn't so broken.
I wish I could be okay.
I just want to be normal.
Copyright © zay kenter | Year Posted 2025
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Zay Kenter Poem
I've been depressed lately and that's not really how I do things.
I try to be happy I try to be brave I try to be dependent.
hears what I really am,
I'm depressed/ sad, weak, unreliable.
I try to appear strong but all I am is broken.
I smile through the hard times because I wasn't tough it was okay to cry I thought you had to be strong so I masked everything for so long and its finally came out.
I feel like a baby when I'm almost 18 I don't feel validated and that's fine right?
I'm not okay and I'm learning slowly that's okay.
but I'm not okay and I want it to go away all the pain I hide under my smile I want it all to disappear....
is that's so bad to wish something could no longer be part of you I want my emotions gone then I wouldn't have the problems I have now.
I just feel pain all the time I don't really want to die but it sounds like the best option sometimes, I've asked to be put with a professional experience to help me but I just got pushed to the side.
I've got mommy and daddy problem I'm messed up in the head and just don't understand why anyone would care about me.
Copyright © zay kenter | Year Posted 2026
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Zay Kenter Poem
I owe you an apology I thought I hated you for leaving me behind.
but the truth is I hate myself for falling for you.
I didn't realize that I what I was doing was considered harassment.
I'm sorry that I got a little to attached to you.
I'm am truly sorry I never ment for things to go as far as they did.
now I see you in my dreams you ask me what kind of dreams.
I tell you some are the same and others are normal.
the truth is the dreams with you in them is something we never had true love.
I've seen what could of been and tried to warp that into reality
but it was just a dream that wont come true and I see that now
I'm sorry if you ever felt peer pressured into anything
we agreed to go our different way just know I wish you the best of luck
is crazy to think we got this far
you could of reported me for harassment but you didn't
you say you call me dork as a sing that you care
if you care then why cant we just be friends?
I'm trying to see it though your eyes and perspective but i cant
I'm letting go without letting go
so good bye till we meet again Ed
Copyright © zay kenter | Year Posted 2025
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Zay Kenter Poem
You want a friend who wont judge you.
I don't judge you not really anyways.
you've hurt me more then you could ever know and yet I still stand by your side.
you talk to me for your own personal gain,
and yet I still stand by you.
what do you want from me?
I got mad at you and told you all you want is a dispo.
I told you you only talk to me for your own personal gain.
and to get whatever you can from me drugs / alc.
you told me there is one more thing but you wont tell me.
and I replied with ofc not Ashton because that's what you do best right keep things to yourself and make me wonder what you want from me.
I'm so sick of this dance just tell me what you want,
you reply with a friend who wont judge me, you don't judge me.
how do you know I don't judge you.
you've hurt me more then you could understand.
Ashton I'm so done with it all the damn mind games.
you tell me your not playing mind games but that's exactly what your doing.
you tell me you love me then turn around and tell me you hate me.
I stay silent when I hang out with you because I have nothing to say to you.
I don't hate you I don't love you I don't know if I like you.
you frustrate me so much that I'm on the brake of losing my mind.
what do you really want cuse im sick of it.
not judging is the trail of a friend,
bull you don't want friends you want pawns to control.
you say sorry for hurting me and it wasn't smart of you
your right it wasn't smart of you but at this point I don't care
I'm done with it all.
I'm done with you!
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Zay Kenter Poem
I try and try to make them all happy but no matter what I do its never enough.
I try and try to give them love and I just get yelled at.
I try and try to tell them what's wrong but they wont Liston.
I try and try to love myself but I just end up crying.
I try and try to stay clean but I know eventually I'll just relapse.
Just with something new.
I try and try to change but I cant seem to find the peace I've been looking for.
I try and try to have friends who care but in the end I'm just left alone.
I try and try to smile but it doesn't feel right and is all fake.
I try and try and try and try but nothing works.
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Zay Kenter Poem
The white that makes the world new.
The white that blinds you.
The white that looks soft but isn't.
The white that is cold.
The white that freezes the lakes and ponds.
The white that is pure.
The white is the opposite of my soul.
The white that's turned my soul black.
The opposite of the very thing I am.
The white that brings happiness and laughter.
I don't have any of that left in me.
I'm at it again pushing everyone away.
What is it about this month that makes me so depressed,
and pull away from everyone.
What is it about winter that makes me sad?
I remember my softmore year.
I was with someone who I thought I would love forever.
I remember playing in the slush with him
I remember cuddling because I was cold.
I'm tired of everything that happens around me.
I'm tired of feeling lost.
What is it about December that makes me want to go kill myself?
What is it about winter that I hate so much?
I hate all of the music and the snow that looks too perfect.
The love that surrounds me but that I'm not a part of
The cute things everyone does for each other.
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Zay Kenter Poem
loneliness is a funny thing you can be near people you know and who love you, and still feel alone.
loneliness is something that everyone feels at some point in our lives.
loneliness is something we all want until we have it.
loneliness is something that haunts us all.
it comes when we least expect it.
loneliness is a feeling of isolation.
isolation happens when you want to be alone but at the same time you want someone to hold you and tell you you'll be okay.
when we need someone to hold onto but there is no one ready to hold you they will tell you sorry for your pain.
they don't know how to comfort you or be there for you and your problems.
you still feel lonely just even more then before.
you'll always feel more alone then you were originally..
loneliness always creeps into our lives when we are most alone.
when we let our guard down loneliness strikes.
loneliness is a illness.
its my sickness that wont leave me alone.
isolation is my weakness.
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Zay Kenter Poem
I'm all alone I have no one left.
I've been left out and that's when my demons show themselves.
I'm all alone I have no one to talk to have no one to help numb my pain.
I have demons inside of me.
My demons show themselves when I'm sad that's when I explode of hatred.
I have the demons in me that take over there's no home for me.
I live my life how the demons run it.
I don't care what people say I'm a demon.
I love it it's just me I'm a demon.
I'm just a demon in everyone's eyes.
I'm no angel I'm a demon.
I let my demons take control when I'm mad.
I don't care what others say about me as a demon.
I love being so dark at the moment.
I love being a demon that everyone fears.
I'm a demon I'll give you sas because I'm sassy I'm bossy so what.
I let my demons take control you can't stop it now.
I'm a demon in everyone's eyes.
I try to make you happy you just leave me here all alone in the darkness.
That's when my demons take control there's no escape for me now.
Everything is red and black for me.
I've got horns that no one else can see.
I'm a demon there's no home for me now.
Nothing for me nothing seems to be right for me anymore.
I can't live like this anymore.
I can't be a demon anymore.
I just can't be a demon anymore.
Im just per evil.
I don't belong with anybody.
Im a monster that everyone fears so what I'm use to it.
say you want me to be happy when all you do is make me mad.
tell me you love me then leave me in this darkness.
That consumes my very being.
If you want to know me good luck.
You have made it impossible for me to trust again.
If you wanted to know me you wouldn't of left me in the darkness.
consumed by my inner demons.
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