zay kenter Poet Free verse

I'm broken

I'm broken I'm not okay.
I hate myself.
I try to love but I can't.
tell me I need to find self love
It's hard to do that when my whole life I've been put down

I'm having a good day and can't help but feel sad.
that's not normal.
I'm scared to lose everyone.
I'm scared I'm going to be left alone.
I can't do this.

I'm terrified and I don't even know of what.
My feelings? that I'm loving someone again?
I'm broken on the inside and no one can see it.
I tell myself that I'm okay but I'm not.
I'm dead on the inside.
all I feel is sadness and depression.

I'm drifting I don't know who I am anymore.
my fight with depression,
feeling like I'm going to be abandoned everyday is getting worse
I have so many people who care about me
but yet all I feel is sad and lonely and I cant deal with this pain much longer.

I need someone to hold me and tell me that I'm okay
I need someone to hold me is that so hard to ask for?
Why is it that I'm always there for others;
then when I need someone physically here for me I don't have a single person?
GOD DAMN IT I JUST NEED SOMEONE please.

I'm so tired of holding everything in all the time.
you don't know the pain I feel.
i wasted my summer on a love that wasn't real and still stay by the dudes side.
the pain I feel is unreal to someone who doesn't know me.
I'm broken I'm falling apart It's the story of my life.

I'm dead and that's okay.
I'm sinking under water, no not water blood I'm choking.
I'm choking on all the pain I feel inside.
i'll hold you even when I'm down.
I hide all my pain under a mask of stupidity and bravery.

you tell me I'm strong but I don't feel strong.
I hide my feelings.
I don't show what I feel I put on a mask and call it a day.
I use the drugs to heal the pain but it just makes it worse when I'm sober.

I've been clean for almost a month now.
I don't have withdraws never did
I knew I'd never get addicted
only to the feeling of being happy

I wish I could take back everything negative in my life but I can't
I wish I could be happy without drugs or alcohol.
I wish that I wasn't so broken.
I wish I could be okay.
I just want to be normal.

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Ghairo Daniels December 28, 2025 at 2:55 AM Hi Zay, ThkU for sharing your truths & vulnerability. Remember that both good & bad times come & go ~ we need to walk through both, as Emotional Beings. Writing does help a healing process, so keep writing. U are OK, no need to wish. Sending high frequency Light your way. Seasons Blessings. X. zay kenter December 28, 2025 at 6:36 AM thank you for your kind words