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Ashley Rapanut Poem
I always thought that as ur daughter,
u would never betray me in anyway.
The way u came in my room at night,
n forced ur self upon me.
I hate u in everyway,
now i have to testify n i really dont know how.
"PLEASE GOD GIVE ME THE STRAIGHNTH TO FACE MY FATHER ONE MORE TIME SO HE GETS
TAKEN AWAY FOR EVER. AMEN"
I will never have to worry about wether ur going to get me or not cause u wont be around
anymore.
U will never understand the pain u put me through n how i always want to cut but i am okay
cause i had to go through hell to get to heaven so thanks sperm donor cause u earn the
name father.....
Love Always,
Ashley R
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when u were in my belly fro about six months i knew ur were the one,
when i lost u i had no idea what to do or how i would live wit myself....
Till this day i wonder how beautiful u would be, i would be taking u to school n being the mom
i always wanted to be.....i guess God took u for a reason maybe i was to young to be a
mother, maybe he didnt want u to see what i was going through, or just maybe he wanted
the best for u my love....but no matter where your spirit roams u are always in my thoughts
n prayers....u would gave been a wonderful daughter i love u nevaeh r.i.p love
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I will not play the role of a "VICTIM" for now i am a "SURVIVOR!"
Its time to hold my head up high n thanx God that i am here one more day!
Livin life can be so hard, but living the life in a "VICTIM ROLE." CAN BE HARDER!
As i look bak on life n into the old dayz, itz true on wat people say, the ones who betray
u first r ur familia. But Thanx To GOD i know who i am n who i Want too be thanx to
everyone who helped me be a better woman in life!!!
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The Rope
i gave u my heart, i gave u my soul now u want to set it free from everything......
So that night i came home not one word to my mother,
went straight up stairs n grabbed the rope.....
that was my only hope.....
when my father came home that night he ran straight to me room looked every where n then
all of a sudden..... the door breaks off.....there is a letter on my desk that went like this...... i
gave her everything n now she sets it free my only hope was the rope, dont blame ur self
mom cause it wasnt u.....when i die did my grave n dig it deep from head to toe wit a simble
that said i died for love wit a dove set free.......
i am sorry if i havent got back to any of u i ended up in the hospital for
attempt of suicide..... the people that raped n beat me really messed me up sooo thanxs so
much n please dont cut like me i love u all n my heart goes out to all of u
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The only way to express my way of hurt is to cut my arms, legs, n every part on my body....
i hurt so much form all the things ive been through.....u will never see the little girl u think i
am cause that little girl no longer exist... when she went into that room her inocense was
taken not by choice but becuase u tied me down.....i will never be albe to get that back n i
wish i could becuase i would have waited till i was ready i was only 6 yet u would never now
in that sick mind of ur's.... i cut to numb my body so i dont feel the pain i do..... thats why i
cut n sometimes more deep then usual.....
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U say ur in love wit me, that u'll never leave me.
It took me awhile to realize how much u loved me.
I always thought that no matter wat u said u were like all he rest of the guys n gurls i
have dated.
Till the day i got very ill n u were still by my side, day by day night by night.
U never gave up on me, always by my side to hold my hand to let me cry on ur shoulder....
Now the day has come that i am falling hard core,
Today is the day that i finally say "I LOVE U BABE" but for some reason when i say it i
dont get a response back.
"So if i fall tonight will u be there to catch me or let me die with a heart break"
i will always love u alex r.i.p. my love
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never thought id feel so lost, thinking u would never leave me.
not worrying about u or any thing else i always took advantage of u.
now ur gone without a doubt, no one left to hear me cry, or even to be next to me.
i never thought id feel this way without u, i am not complete my heart is torn to peices
n i just want to tell u i love u with all my heart
R.I.P NINO MIKE JIMEMEZ
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my heart is broken into many pieces n i dont now how to put it back together so i am
asking for some help in healing my heart.....
if u dont know me well get to know me i am very sweet wit a broken heart my my nino died i
felt like i had nothing left my heart was torn n my soul had left my body....if u want to
help me be there for me when i need an ear to confide in or a shoulder to cry on.....my
heart wants to be healed but doesnt know how to i feel like i could run for years n never
fee lthe same wit out my nino.... as i look at his pictures it reminds me of all the
happy times of when we were together....now i must trust that now i will be able to heal
wit the love of my mother n the love of my boyfriend
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I thought u were my protector,
the one who would touch me.
Ur such a lier, When all u did was rape me.
u beat my n never stopped.
I hope u feel good about ur self now,
cause all i feel like is hurting myself.
i feel that u were my hero,
the one who would never hurt me.
ur the one n wit all the rest of ur friends who took my inocents,
i hope that one day u'll realize how much i want to die.
i go on a day to day basis thinking wether i should blast myself.
u'll never now how much pain u brought to my life, n how i will never be okay.
but i will survive n be a surviver n i will never give up on life.
thanks 4 everything cause if i didnt go through that i wouldnt be who i am today!!!!
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Sum people call it WAR PAINT,
While I call it MAKE-UP!
Most typical young lady wear make-up cuz they think they look ugly,
& I wear make-up to hide the shame!
The pain&hurt that ive been through seemz lik it is gunna last forever!
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