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looking at ur smile trying to see if ur really happy or not sure i see your glamorous clothes
and high stlye shoes but does he give you that love that u really want . watching mom as you
grow up taking in everything daddy does as no bid deal even as a little kid you know that
lady doesnt act like an aunty should when mommy not around. in the streets the men crowd
around just to watch you walk by i get now you feel ur a hot commdity but its just a game
they girls before you have figured out after they slipped and gave it up that their really not
that more important than the one that was before you lol funny just thinking about it as you
try to tell your younger sister to watch out and be care ful cause ur stuck at home with a
baby like mom was at your age when grandma tried to warn her too but little sis doent listen
cause she feels like you once did that she wont ever make that mistake and end up like you.
look like everything is just repeating itself until sis this doesnt come home with a baby cause
she has alreadt caught that virus and stuck in and out of the hospital cause ha baby cant
fight off the aids thats rapidly rushing through ha body. as mom blames you for what hass
happened your sister and your still blaming mom for what happened to you grandma sits
back and prays that everything will be alright baby daddy not around cause he feels hes not
man enough to be a farther not that he will admit be puts it as its not his baby afraid he will
turn out just like his farther stuck taking care of a baby and not able to live his life and end
up miserable and abusing mom and cheating with the local prostitues who have come to
know him by name and the ones who you slang crack to day in and day out too. its what
some would call the thug life lol i dont see why cause no education or streets smart to hustle
just a dummie standing on a corner with a bag in ya pocket and money that your bound to
get robbed of.
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Feeling like the love i had was impossible to break in too many pieces as i see it in front of
me. Hating myself for allowing those silly wordsI LOVE YOU to sink into my heart insted of
my mind letting my self become apart of some kind of game your playing.Loving the loyalty i
once had to myself to now feeling feeling like the only loyalty i truly had was to you. How
could i allow it to get this far so deep to where living without you is not an option. the
impossible has now become the possible.the world that i once knew only revolved around
me has been destroyed and now unable to be put back as one are you happy now knowing
you achieved your goal of getting me to fall in love and allow my walls of insecure ways to
be broken down.Do you get the pleasure of knowing feeling the weight of knowing you wont
always be there puts a hold on my life . It if does i give you your credits of successfully
getting it to happen.Knowing things will never be back as they were now and scared a little
because i dont honestly know how to handle the truth that im in love and that this time
around my heart probably wont be broken. I dont try to on purpose but seem to always
cause you pain . i feel that sometimes if i push you away then i can worry less about about
being hurt again.I feel wrong for what i have done but i dont know any other way to make
my self face reality that maybe just maybe you actually do LOVE me for me flaws and all .I
am probably looked as silly and not worthe being with in your eyes i dont blame you i blame
myself maybe once i get over the fact love doesnt mean you have to be hurt first to get it
then i could except the fact that the love i have been reaching out for has been in the front
of me the whole time THE IMPOSSIBLE HAS NOW BECOME THE POSSIBLE
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SHE WALKING OUT ON ME. I ONCE JUST FELT AS IF I COULD NEVER DO ANYTHING TO
MAKE HER HAPPY AND WILLING TO MAKE WHAT WE HAD WORK BUT NOW I SEE IN REALITY
THATS ITS TRUE. MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE JUST STAYED THE SAME PERSON I WAS BEFORE
AND LIVED MY LIFE WITHOUT THA SLIGHT THOUGHT OR CONCERN OF HOW OTHERS FELT. I
SHOULD HAVE STAYED THAT SELFISH PERSON AND USED PEOPLE TO GET WHAT I WANTED
AND ONLY THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT BENEFITS ME IN THE END.BUT I DIDNT TRYING TO
ACTUALLY CARE AND BE THAT LOVING PERSON I ALWAYS KEPT DEEP DOWN INSIDE OF ME
NOW I SEE IT HAS ONLY GOTTEN ME HURT AND ONCE AGAIN ALONE .
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knowing that i could run you and be sure without a doubt that if i were to fall you would be
there to caught me . Make me feel like royalty and that im worthe more then anicent gold .
Feeling like i can be who i want without the judgement of how i choose to live and my life
and who i choose to live it with. Not hiding that fact that i actually found that love that
everyone says doesnt exsist.YOUR WRONG. we're living proof that no matter the race the
size the sex that we have that unbreakable love and fire couldnt cause damage to it. No
longer for anyone to understand because the life you live was not meant to be undersstood
nor accepted just to be lived by you.
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tick tick tick tick.. i watch as the clock slowly hits three my body starts to trimble knowing
that your about to walk in the door.. wondering if you will happy to see a face from your past
remembering not only the bad but the good times we shared. Hoping i get that lasting kiss
instead of that stare of looking into space wondering where you are.. reaching out to hug me
and not to reach for the door to open it and tell me to leave ... i know you have a family and
i cant come betwwen that but i dont see anything wrong with us trying... you say everybody
out of town and will bne back any minutes well lets see what happens before they make.. am
i moving too fast or should i even be moving in this direction at all? didnt really think this
through before i came thought maybe you would welcome me with open arms and act as if
nothing happened or if you wouldnt remember and we would start over.. i deserve this
treatment after the pain and trauma i caused but i was wondering if i was to kiss you one last
time would the passion of you once being in love with me was still there.. wondering if you
were to wrap me in your arms would you hesitate to let me go. knowing is wrong to say but
the family you share with her should be mine you should wake up to my breakfast and
dinner and maybe dessert if thats what you want sure i didnt know how to treat you when i
had you but now that i had the chance to practice with many i think i have this house wife
and family thing down packed. sure it might cause you one broken home but im here to
rescue you and start to build a new one......
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woke up this morning and felt as if i didnt belong... like i was in a place unknown ...like i was
a stranger in my own skin ... felt as if there was apart of me missin.. it was you. the way
you touch edme and kissed me .. how we would smile at each other that first time we seen
each other face .. not caring about tommorrow as long as it involved us being with each
other.. feeling like you couldnt help but say i love you for no reason ... the way we use to
glue ourselfs to the phone sleepy but fighting to stay up just to keep hearing each others
voice...im feeling a little strange . but i like it
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Am I paying the prize for your mistakes or the ones of my own? Will we linger on wat
happened in the pass or will we move on like we keep saying we will? Do I have to keep
hearing about what I did and how bad it hurt you or will i have to keep reminding you about
the woman who was said to be a friend came out to be a lover? Giving this alot of thought
and still stuck in the same place not wanting to leave but tired of wondering if i should stay.
Fighting the feeling that you might go out and do it all over or even worst push me into
another persons arms. Daydreaming about those nights we would fall asleep in each others
arms and wake with a smile the next day it became arguing and now sleeping alone and
hearing you walk in at five in the morning. those the days we would say how much we loved
each other for no reason to I cant even look in your face let alone says I was still even in
love with you anymore. It breaks my heart that we have come to this point but its seems
like its damaged beyong repair. SO NOW WHATS GOING ON IS ITS OVER!!!
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to have you hold me like you use to. to constantly voice how much you love me even when
there is no reason too. to show me tha i actually mean something to you even when im not
returning the favor. wanting to be back to that person i once was where i couldnt help to
think about you. having dreams that we were that perfect couple wanting to never stop
talking to you cause knowing that as soonas i hang up i would be missing you like crazy
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It was the most beautiful thing actually feeling like i have that love that most could only
dream of having, willing to do anything to keep it going just not give you my whole heart.
Not wanting to hold my past against you but sometimes cant help but go back to hearing
those words "YOU CAN TRUST YOUR HEART IS IN GOOD HANDS"I mean sure i can feel that
you mean it when you say your deeply in love with me but my heart feels it but my mind has
not caught up with my heart to also agree.I probably will be making a mistake by not giving
you the chance to prove yourself so im sitting here debating is it worthe saving or will it be
just another failure?Not really wanting an answer dont really feel i would be able to handle
the truth of maybe im making a mistake of letting you walk out of my life because i let the
past destroy my future, that future that i kept asking for and finally got it and doesnt know
what to do wit it. I THINK ITS WORTHE SAVING..
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who really is honestly and bold enough for the job.. able to say i love you and mean it with
everything inside. to be able to say that you have done everything and anything possible to
make it work and will continue to do so. can stand and prove others wrong that unconditional
love does exist. to show me there is no need for me to beg and pray to god on my knees to
give me that love to fix my cold stone heart of hatred towards those who hurt me and to
start to love and trust agian.
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