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Mad As a Hatter ~down With the Bloody Red Queen~

insipired by Alice In Wonderland

Tell me how did I get myself stuck in this dream 
A dream I dream every night it seems 
And every night is as strange as before. 

Have I possibly gone mad? 

This must be a dream 
It is impossible for animals to talk 
For cats to smile 
And mice to walk. 

I must have gone bonkers! 

Oh dear, this is so confusing 
Oh how could this be? 
Everything is after me 
Everyone is chasing me 
Oh but wait this is all just a dream. 

Everyone here is has simply gone daffy! 

Oh look who’s this 
This place of wonder has a queen 
Oh dear, oh my 
She is very mean 
She’s feared rather than loved 
Face burning blood red 
As she’s screaming 
“Off with his head”. 

Now she is most defiantly mad. 

Oh no, not good 
The queen is after me 
But why 
Why now could this be 
What did I do 
What can I do 
To stop her from beheading me? 

Oh yes that’s it 
I’ll twist the tables ‘round 
And now 
There’s no place for her to run 
Oh it seems I have won 
Her time as queen is done 
Even her own army is gone. 

But oh, I can’t 
Not even this life I can end 
But alone the rest of her life shell spend 
Banished without a friend. 

That would drive any person mad. 

I have learned through this peculiar journey 
To believe the impossible 
Open up your mind 
Open your heart as well 
And soon you’ll find 
Animals talking 
Roses painted red 
Careful now 
Try not to loose your head 
So dream your dreams 
Wish upon a star 
I may be mad as a hatter 
But hey 
The best people are.

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Blank Canvas

Blank Canvas
White and bland
Is who I am
Simple and plain

Practically clear.

You hold the paintbrush
And you hold the pallet
A pallet full of colors
Colors that will make me something I’m not
But what difference would it make when I was no one.

You paint on a smile
You paint it far and wide
I guess I’m happy…
No I am happy
But you masterpiece isn’t finished yet
Perfection is everything to you….to me.

Erase the smile
Paint on a frown
Pain the teardrops
Raining down
I guess I’m sad
I should be
I don’t know what I’m upset about
But I am sad.

No… no that’s not right
Paint on green
My favorite color
I think…I know
Raving with envy
I wish I was you
Oh how I wish to be anyone else but me
But how would I know
Who am I?

Like a chameleon
I can blend in
A backdrop to any scenery
What ever the surroundings
You’ll paint me in
What else could I be
I’m just stuck being this way
Whatever this way is.

My description varies
And personality is unknown
So go ahead and paint if for me
You know me better than I do right…

Your masterpiece is finished
Painted to perfection
I look in the mirror
And the chameleon stares back
I don’t want to be this way
I want to break out of this camouflage
I want to be my own artist
Paint what I feel
Paint who I am.

Tears stream down
Actual ones
Bringing pale colors of paint with it
Streaking your masterpiece
Creating a puddle full of colors unfamiliar to me.

I look back into the mirror
I see the messy streaked canvas
I smile
This mess makes me laugh
Its colorful
Creative
Perfectly imperfect
This streaked and unique canvas
Is me.

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To Love You This Way

Is it a crime
To feel for you as I do
When it won’t do me or you any good
We can’t be together
Like opposing magnets
We clash
Impossible, yes
But it is true that I’m desperate for what I cant have.

I’ll watch behind closed doors
Wishing I was outside with you
But I’m locked up in this prison
A punishment I pay
For it is a crime to see you this way.

I can dream about you forever
But I dream in lies
And eventually I’ll wake up to face this harsh reality.

So just forget I exist
Shouldn’t be hard
Considering you will never look at me
The way I see you
I guess that’s a good thing
Only a fool would love me
And you, good sir, are no fool.

You will live a happy life
Smile that dazzling smile of yours
And I pray that you will remember me as I once was
Not as the monster I am now.

I’d forget about you if I could
I would be better off
But I can’t forget you
I don't want to forget something so beautiful
My dear you will be the death of me
Gnawing at the nerves making them fray
Oh it is a crime to think of you this way.

On my death bed
Dying am i
Without you with me
Without you holding my hand
Whipping gout this disease of the mind
That’s destroying me now
You gave me reason to live
But like the rest of me your gone
And I’m slowly wasting away
It is a crime to live for you this way.

I’ll await my destiny
And it will be a drak fate
But if I think of you
And how it could have been
It will be as if it were real
As if you ever loved me
And that’s all I needed.

I wish I could have told you how I felt
Just so you could see into my heart and know that I’m not a monster
I should have followed my heart
But that path leads to death
So I’ll rip it out so I won’t hear what it has to say
For it is a crime to love you this way.

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Because You Were There

Because you were there
I am still here
You kept me alive
You gave me a reason to live

Because you were there
I was brave
Strongly we stood
Hand in hand
Facing disasters

Because you were there
I felt loved
This feeling never felt
I craved it

Because you were there
I could dream
Dream forever I would
And each one would be of you
I would never wake

Because you were there
I was whole
The gaps were filled
I had purpose now

Because you were there
Never did I worry
Why would I 
I had you
I had everything

Because you were there
I could smile
Widely 
Brightly
With no one stopping me
No one wiping it from my face
You kept me smiling

Because you were there
You wiped the tears I cried
Said it would be okay
Held me tight
I could remember why I was ever crying
When I had you

Because you were there
I had hope
I believed in myself
I knew I could make it
I knew we were meant for better bigger things than this
I was willing to find that meaning
With you

I was finally happy
And it was because you were there

But then..
My sun
My warmth
Protection
And comfort
It burned out

Empty and alone
I cried out your name
There was no answer
Only the ringing of goodbyes strong in my ears

I felt weak 
I felt useless
I felt dead

My dreams turned into nightmares
The ones you can’t awake from
The one thing that kept me living
Is now what’s killing me
You are no longer here for me
And that’s because I was never there for you.

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Bullet For My Valentine ~russian Roulette~

Love is a fifty fifty chance
A coin toss
Either we make it
Or we don’t.

It’s a game of Russian roulette
There will be a time when one of us will get hurt
Someone will eventually be burned
With a fire that can’t be extinguished.

It’s a game of luck
And luck does not fall on my side
This will not end well
So it might as well end for me
To save you from the pain.

I’ll fake a smile
So you won’t be worried
Although you should be relieved
I’m the one who should be crying
I’m the one…
Who deserves to die.

Everything else fades away into the black
Leaving only you and I
Oh how I wish this moment could last for a lifetime
But even this, my dear, even this will fade
And I will fall from this heavenly cloud
Without anyone to catch me.

I’d rather it be me instead
I cringe at the thought of you
Alone
Falling
I’m of little importance
No one would cry
No one would think much of it
Just go on with their lives
Yes I’m glad it was me instead of you
Because watching you die
Now that’s one thing I couldn’t do.

I told you “I love you”
Now I must eat those words
They are a poison
Killing you so
I must suck this poison out in order to keep you alive
These words are bitter
They are hard to swallow
The taste won’t soon leave my tongue
But better me than you.

I won’t forget you
I couldn’t if I tried
I’ll remember you to eternity
My only wish
Is that you could forget me
Forget the pain
Forget the tears
Forget the love
My dear please forget me.

I don’t regret anything
I don’t regret falling in love with you
And I don’t regret taking love’s bullet for you
I’m glad it was me instead of you
Because watching you die
Now that’s one thing I couldn’t do

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Porcelain Heart

My heart is made of Porcelain
It is weak
It is breakable
Cracked from the past
It is delicate
Surprising
Something so
Fragile
Could still be
With the weight of the world upon it
It continues to break.

You hold it together a temporary bond
Nothing is permeate
All good things must fade
I will slip from your hands one day
And fall
Unto my fate.

Crack.

Pain has taken its toll on me
This porcelain heart
Hallow
Empty
A vacuum of pain waiting
Waiting to be filled.

Crack.

Only a few more to finish
Should not take long
Somethings don’t change
Why would they
This world filled with hate
Adds more weight upon my shattered heart

Crack.

Miserable
I fall
The tears fill my heart
Only to leak through the cracks
And then..
A new feeling
Not pain
Not sadness
But love
Love filled up my heart
It does not fade nor does it slip through the cracks
I am whole
I am loved.

But how long will it last, this feeling of love?
After all nothing is permeate
Even the brightest star must burn out
Where is my disappointment
Where is my pain
Nothing is familiar anymore
Lost confused
This new emotion makes no sense
This love you give me
Overwhelms me
I am undeserving.

But I am greedy
I only want more of this “Love”
I reach out towards you
So close
I can almost touch you
But this porcelain ground,
It is weak
Cracked
I fall through
My heart is made of porcelain…
And it shatters

Crack.

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To Kill a Mocking Bird

You sit and you cry whipping fake tears
Hiding the blood on your hands
Telling the fictionist tales
And slaughter with slander
Oh you are always the victim and never the criminal
How could you place the blame on the innocent…don’t you know
It is a sin to kill a mocking bird.

What has it done to you?
Nothing. 
Nothing besides sing its songs for you to hear
So why are you crying now
Why are you so angry
Do you even know?
Why do you continue this display
Who is here to impress
Even the judge has left
Everyone stopped believing your lies yet you keep to the same story
But this tale won’t end well
You can’t keep the truth hidden.

You shot a mocking bird
It was a cheap and easy shot yet you boast like it’s the best you’ve got.

You had no good reason 
Even you know you’re wrong
But oh your pride
Your selfish pride
It has cheated your mind.

So go ahead and vilify the innocent
It won’t get you very far
Because you’re digging your grave deeper and deeper
And soon you’ll have no one left to pull you back.

I must admit it’s very sad
But seeing everything you've done…
I’m ashamed to say I don’t feel bad.

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In Memory

I’m terrified that everything I have ever loved will vanish
So I’ll make these memories
Memories that never die
Even when forgotten
They are still alive
So you can always be with me and I with you
We won’t ever be alone.

Life is disappointing
An endless battle within
And I keep dodging these bullets to stay alive
I must survive
I have something to live for
If I remember you
The rest of the world will disappear
And it will be just you and me
It makes everything else seem less bad.

I’m so fortunate
I had you
For one brief moment I had you
I cannot curse the fates for taking away that moment
When I’m happy to remember a brief second
For the rest of my life.

The stars will fade
And the moon will fall
But you and me
We are survivors
Even when separated
Our hearts stay close
When there is nothing left
Everyone else is gone
You’re still with me
And I have everything.

Even on the darkest of nights
You scare away the shadows
So I can sleep peacefully
I can dream peacefully
And everyone would be of you
I could dream forever.

This world is full of evil
They come and they kill
But they cannot take away our love
We walk together hand in hand
And I know that everything will be okay
As long as we are together.

I’m no longer afraid that you’ll disappear
I always have these memories
And fate can’t take that away
You’re always here with me
Always by my side
I feel your presence
And I can’t help but smile
I know you’re here
And I won’t ever forget you.

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The World Above

Two dimensions
Two worlds
The world above
In which there is life
In which there is love…
And the world below.
This other world is a mystery
None dare go near
In the fear of what they might see…
Or what they may never see again.
I’m curious, however
I want to know what lies beneath the surface.
I look into the mirroring surface
And a small girl stares back
She smiles
There is a look of adventure upon her face
I must meet this girl.
I test the waters
The temperature perfect
I dive in without holding my breath
My heart pounds
I can hear loudly in this world
The sound of it holds a sense of danger to it
A hint of warning
But I must meet this girl
So I swim deeper and deeper.
I’ve realized that there is nothing for me here
I turn back towards the surface
But I cannot move
I kick my legs but still remain in the same place
I struggle
I scream
But who would hear
When in a place where all screams fade
I begin to cry
But my tears go unnoticed when surrounded by many others.
My lungs are heavy
They beg for air
I know I will not find any here.
My heart screams at me
I am so sorry
I should have listened to you.
I reach out
But there is no one on the other side to pull me back
Defeated
Surrounded by black
Black that drags me deeper into this watery grave
I look up towards the surface
A surface I will never see again
I see the one place I want to be
Becoming farther and farther away from reach
I’m falling
Leaving the ones I dearly love
I’m falling
Falling from the world above.

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Self Destruct

You hold your cards
A smile stretches across your face
But I’ll beat you at your own game
Defeat you with my ace.

You stole my heart away
And I’ll fight to get it back
Oh my dear
Things will only get worse from here.

So shut your eyes
This won’t hurt a bit
You won’t want to witness
The murder I’ll commit.

The hum of the dagger
The strike of the blade
The edges are sharp
Cutting open the veins.

Running on broken mirrors
That reflect the pain
Pale cuts still deep
The scars will remain.

I should have seen it coming
I knew you’d break my heart
The damage is now done
Now watch me break your world apart.

You don’t need my help
The devious plan I construct
Is I wont have to lift a finger
I’ll just watch you self destruct.

I was your little puppet
With strings tied to your black soul
But I’m cutting the bonds loose
And taking back control.

You caught me off guard
Then kicked me when I went down
But I know you’ll get your karma
What goes around comes around.

My eyes sharpened
Fire burned in my eyes
Only a lone tear is shed
As I watch you die.

But this is my revenge 
I hope you are well aware
You’ll never understand how much you hurt me
This crime fails to compare.

I died in silence
The act was done in secret
The day I died cold and alone
I will not soon forget.

I raise the dagger
Plunged it into your chest
Smiled when it was over
The act was relieving and final at best.

You take in a sour last breath
Your probably to distant to hear
But I kneel down by your side
To whisper “I love you” in your ear.