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Best Poems Written by Colbi Hagan

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Its Him Or No One At All

I admit I look at pretty girls
Most I don’t think about after that
In that way I’m a straight man
But not a cis one
I could be a lesbian, I guess
But only in a way that would be frown upon
Because I do like guys
Guy, in specific
And it’s barely like anymore
Love
I love this man
If I cannot be his I will be a straight guy
I’ll fish
Listen to heavily metal music
I will be homophobic if I must
I’ll drink the gay away
I’ll go home with girls I don’t know
I’ll go bald young
I’ll have a few kids
By then I guess I’d be a raging alcoholic because no amount of alcohol will ever make me as straight as I can pretend to be
I know I’d disappoint myself by then, and most definitely not be a man he’d be able to love
This poem would be the most I have to give him
A poem from years ago
From the one that wouldn’t give up for him
The one that is still listening to the music and sending text messages
The friend he can talk to

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Your Love

I loved you.
I really did.
My poetry is about you 
Your face so neatly carved into my brain I can draw you from memory.

You were the first to know how I felt 
How you tugged at my heartstrings in a way so excruciatingly painful 
I saw you through my rose coloured lenses and gulped down painkillers forgetting that you ever pained me.

You lead me on like one of your mindless pets
I would have died for you
If you told me you wanted them dead they'd be dead
If you told me you wanted me dead my last words would be yes sir. 

I want to break from your grasp 
Although the words you speak bring too much comfort
The way you look at me
The wonder in your eyes as if you never have seen my suffering or the way one could trip over themselves and sacrifice themselves as I for something like you

I scavenge for the love you once gave me
Trinkets that I keep in a box and at the bottom of my bag

Your love is a drug 
My stash low
I crave for every bit of love you give me

It's a bad influence 
My memory blurry
You make me sick.

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Women

A women
A shell of a body
A chest held close
Clothing hanging off them
Holding to be the only thing they have
The barrier they keep
The barrier that keeps them walking
Keeps them from looking back
Keeps the footsteps behind them
Keeps the hands in their pants
And not in hers

She keeps your lights on
Her headphones in
Her pace fast
Her clothing layered

Her dog's leash tied to her wrist
Her dogs big and vicious

Their breaths smell of liquor and bad decision
Their fist beaten raw
Like another's face

Their heads are bare
Bald young
Wrinkled and ugly
Stained with those decisions
Drug abuse
Alcoholism

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Love

I love you like the moon loves the sun
Like the ground to the sky
Like Joey to Rachel

I love you passionately 
With every beat of my heart
With every glance I dare
Sentences of words you understand 
Questions
Answers

I love you so much
So painfully

I show you my affection
Reflecting your light
Smiling to myself reading over old text messages
Songs
Jokes

I write the words
Sentences 
Paragraphs
Poetry.

I speak 
References 
Joke
Opinion 
Suggestion

I suggest
Music
Pieces of writing 

I market myself 
With every bit of energy I put thinking of you and only you
Music
Poetry
Cries.

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Forgotten Nights Lead To Forgotten Promises

I'm promised to your finger tips
The ones that run through my hair and run across my skin
When there's space between that skin and the cloth that hangs off me
My shirts aren't tucked into my pants you can enter and exit as you please

Your fingerprints left over the seats of our parents cars 
People we forget we know
People that are nearly the blood we rub off our skin and let drain into sinks and bathtubs

I promise you my nights 
When no one can hear us and no and can recall what exactly we've done
Asleep or unaware 
Passed out or might as well be

Your the drug I take
The one that makes me forget
Making me numb

Your lips the cure for the problems I can’t solve
You the reverse to the sins committed that night

I smile for you
And for the numbness you bring

For the morning may come and your name may be gone

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DeadMan

I promise you the most pure red
The red lips I bare
The reddest blood I see

I promise you my heart
I rip it from my chest
You make me heartless
That's fine

I love you

My arms bleed
So do my legs
My wrist

I'm half dead
I'm your dead man

I kill myself for you
I let you kill me
Try yourself 
I'm ready 
I've done it myself 
The first when I was 9

I lay out my wrist
A smile I bare 
My eyes blank
My lips dried with blood
My hair I rip out

I'm ugly
I'm weak
I'm love

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Break

I hate the way you talk to me like you didn't break me

The way you pull me close and whisper your spells
Your hands hold me warm but your nails dig deep

My arms are marked with my decay
Like my grave I will stay
Buried alive in a shallow grave I weep

I hate you with the fire that once burned for you
I let the fire burn at my arms and legs
I let the fire feed at my soul
The papers I write 
The life I had before you.

I hate you in a way that isn't hate
I love you and it feeds to the hate

I burry out the heart I kept for you
I let it shine with the clean water I pour over it

I let myself shine for you
My smile
My laugh

You heard me once 
You smiled once
Every good thing would come to an end
You didn't hear me
And I didn't hear the dishonesty

I still smile
I still break

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Justice

Your face I remember clearly as the sky that I once saw

The color your eyes turned as the sun hit them

Amber, like the sand on the beach where children run free
The way you made me feel free and childish
Amber, like the fire that would burn at the scarified skin, hearts and blood
The way you make my skin burn, my cheeks first then an attempt at the heart but my blood will always be boiled

The smile you once shown upon me
It spread across your cheeks like the brush of an artist
It was crafted perfectly with the right amount of hope and tragedy

The rocking of your head as you laugh
For the jokes you've made 
Reference, and stupidity 

Your face is the one I remember 
The one I can carve into my skin
For you I might as well

You tug at my eyes 
I feel at my scars
Your words dragging me into your arms
Your pit

I smile for you
The face engraved into my shoulders words engraved in my thighs and cheeks

Where you've touched 
Things I'll never get back
The body once untouched
Once at peace 

I justify your being
As justice you leave me blind and mindless

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Curves

My arms over my chest
Where you want yours to be

My back bent over my body 
To have the layers fall over my chest and my stomach

My collars held closely at my neck 
The rolling of my curves hidden always
Sleeves held down over the arms that hold marks of shame

Upon shame I hide my body

Upon your eyes I hide from
The ones that don't see mine
The ones that don't mention the smile I muster at eye contact
The eyes that follow my chest
My curves

Your eyes aren't a problem when I can nearly hear the thought in your head
The images 
The ideas
The emotion.

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Drain You

You can stroke at my skin
Blow me kisses
Touch my hands
The legs I have scratched at leaving scares I'll never let you see

You could mean it all
You could love me.

You could give me everything I'd even need
Things like food or water
A life
From the blood flowing through my body
To the mind games

Things I need and things I don't 

I could love you
I could hold your hand
I could laugh at all your stupid jokes
I could give you everything I have

Thats what I'll do for you

But that won't stop me from killing you
Watching the blood slowly drain you
Watching the worry coat your once beautiful features

I could do everything from the first stab into your gut to the deposing of your  body

Then I'd consider the risk you took taking my hand and not hers

But of course you did take her hand
You held them carefully
You let her into the light we once shared