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It makes the stomach churn
Twist, turn, pure torture
A foolish fairy-notion
A nightmare come true
It binds you - not free
It blinds you - unable to clearly see...
it's ignorance
Yet to fools that's bliss
Rather to wallow in its lies and broken vows
Than to escape the rubble-the garbage that piles
Such laughable, despicable, pathetic junk
Yet some go to great lengths to keep it
In a dark alley, it steals and shatters the heart
But a realist knows to flee from it
Be lazy and lax on it
For it won't stick with you
Roll your eyes, snicker, even ignore
Remind me to forget ...
it's intense redness
For in the end the flame turns blue
Experience alters the fantasy
And although heartbreaking, it's true
It can be soul-saving
Why do we adore with everything within
What seems to send us crashing
Plummeting...
Downward...
In a bewildering abyss?
Love.
Copyright © Macky Carr | Year Posted 2009
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I woke up feeling weird today
Stuck and clung to the bed
Body chained and mind throbbing
But surprisingly ...
I fairly dreamed good and fair dreams
Of next year's trips and a certain freedom
I guess getting to the GOOD
Tries and tires you first
I did the strangest thing next
I cried in prayer
I felt sorry for him
'Cause my love was really there
He knew and knows and will always know
There will never be another heart for him
I'm sorry sweetie ... I have to move on
And I am ...
And I am ... in more ways than this
And I am ... cleansed, free, and normal tonight
Copyright © Macky Carr | Year Posted 2010
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I'm tired ...
I'm tired ...
The highs and lows
The wishing and the letdowns
The hope and the despair
I'm tired ...
My mind won't settle
In a hurry to think the worst
And yet to believe ...
I'm tired ...
My stomach never at ease
Quivers and crumbles and turns
And yet butterflies form ...
I'm tired ...
My heart - so abnormal
Pumps boiling blood while in numerous shreds
And yet it truly loves ...
I'm tired ...
My soul unrest
"Nervous," "Alone," and "Heated Fear"
Quickly in the innards creep
And yet it feels and breathes the deepest depths
I'm tired ...
And why?
For what purpose?
Sense?
It makes none
Mind and heart conflict
Almonds puff and the face swells
Droplets pattern tracks in its chasms
And why?
For what purpose?
Just give up ... wait
Stay strong
Let go ... wait
Hold on
Forget ... wait
Remember ... remember then
I'm so tired
Copyright © Macky Carr | Year Posted 2010
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I thought I was the only one for you
That's what you said to me
Those promises were only half-true
But I just couldn't see
You're truly divine and surely pretty
That's what you said to me
But an ordinary rating is what I would receive
But I just couldn't see
I love you; you're my baby, my honey cake
That's what you said to me
But all those sweet words ended up to be nothing and fake
But I just couldn't see
To give me your last name
That's what you wanted for me
That, my dear, was just a game
But I just couldn't see
"I'm so glad I got a girl like you in my life,
to my hear you have the key."
That's what you said to me
Later it was, "I need my space, I want to be free."
But I just couldn't see
You're my first love
That's what you said to me
But other girls you really wanted to put above
But I just couldn't see
You're my everything, my whole world
That's what you said to me
And yet on your shoulder laid the head of another girl
But I just couldn't see
I adore your innocence, you're incredibly sweet
That's what you said to me
And in the next breath i heard, "You're bossy and mean."
But I just couldn't see
Precious poems and love letters
That's what you wrote to me
But you're only so convinced there's someone out there better
But I just couldn't see
To you my heart was so true
My love, so genuine and new
to me, but I learned
For you to teach me affection I yearned
Our feelings grew so strong
Until we did things that were wrong
Love brought us together and took us away
Or was it you and your hurful ways?
Or was it my lack of experience?
My going to fast?
Not enough beauty?
Too young?
Too shapely?
Not the right shade?
Or was it that my love was too deep for you to understand
So instead of explaining to me, you ran?
Ran...far away from me
Showed me a side I thought from you I'd never see
But the love is gone
And you went too
Hurt, confusion, frustration
That's what you really gave to me
But that, my dear
I just thought I would never see.
1/18/07
Copyright © Macky Carr | Year Posted 2009
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Who really knows it?
Really, who knows it?
Photographs...
present and past
prompt no shock
For life's "moving pictures"
command unexplainable pain
Real-time -- in your face inhumane
Jagged embraces
Unwanted and violated
Gravel-kissed skin
Cherry pools to swim in
Steadily rotting on the inside
Infections of the flesh and mind
Unnatural stares in sneaky eyes
Quiet so loud in the child's muffled cry
Crooked thrones and selfish power
Demand the hopeful to cower
FEAR in blackened faces -- emerge from rubble
Shattered and broken -- but not the windows
Open mouths crave pills poured out
Another life snuffed -- closed shut
Bare feet and hungry hands blend in the concrete path
A common "freedom" none want to have
Run-ragged eyes
See the tiring struggle to survive
Before the imminent demise
Extinguished light
Brain beyond stunned
Body past numb
Tragedy's despair
And disbelief's anguish
Stab man's existing wounds
Pain too powerful
To be understood
What can you say?
What can you do?
When sudden moments beckon
action and reaction from you?
Be HUMAN.
Copyright © Macky Carr | Year Posted 2012
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The smirk above my chin
Droplets & playful wind
Cotton cocoons & flipping pages
Cooke & Louis tingling the senses
Soul speaking through ivory glides
Laughter & chocolate in constant supply
Scurrying & curious tiny feet
Albums & frames replay memories
Doris Day, Hudson, & kettle corn
Paper airplanes & Nintendo
Skin embraces little dances of gold
Squeezing through the dense & my window
Crows & swallows make their presence known
Thoughts meander behind lashes laid low
The warmth within
The movement of my pen
Love those rainy days...
Copyright © Macky Carr | Year Posted 2012
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Forth and forth
Never back
Never stagnant
Never ending
On and on and on and on and on...
Despite adverse events
Despite adverse happenings
Never slowing to observe
Just keeps on going
Ignoring
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Please let the rain come
My God, let it come
To purge me
A detox
Cleanse me
The internal filth
The sins that stack up
Like body bags on a barren field
The stench
Putrid, profound, unnatural
A target I am
In front of the barrel I let myself stand
My wretchedness
Inescapeable
Can't ignore nor blindly run anymore
I'm truth's prey
Sank its claws deep in my flesh
And willingly I become the catch
Tears
For what I could've been
Not for what I've become
Disappointment is my nightly visitor
I beckon the heavens
To open up and release its wells
Drizzle, drop, drench me
Release me
Wash away
The shameful guilt and searing pain
The dark heart that wins and overtakes
I can't deal with me
Make me anew
Please God, please I beg you
Set free the rain
Copyright © Macky Carr | Year Posted 2009
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