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Maria Truong Poem
ill surrender to fate...
because i cant fight for the both of us;
and i wont fight if you dont have enough love to be here.
im guessing all those times that 'i love you'
reached the tip of our tounges
but never made its way out
was gods way of saying "no, this wasnt meant to be."
but, i did not doubt my love for you...
i just was not able to receive the same love in return...
and that hurt like hell, no touch of heaven in sight.
your last words to me were that...
you have always wanted to be in two places at once.
you walked away not knowing
your place on the face of this heart
and my heart.
now, i hate myself for having cared too much
and i want to hate you for not caring enough.
if somebody could please open these eyes to the truth...
because they have been blinded by your deceptions.
even if it seems to me that nobody in this world
could successfully change my new perceptions.
love is love, but without a definition to me anymore.
i am who i be, but without you.
whats this heart for ?
Copyright © Maria Truong | Year Posted 2009
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Maria Truong Poem
world, look out for me...
because i seem to destroy everything in my path.
in other words, all good things are destroyed by my wrath.
i cant do anything right, or is it that i wont let the right happen ?
... or is it my evil conscience ?
because that devil stays rappin'.
now, i dont believe in god...
but im still ashamed of my sins.
right or wrong, this life i cannot win.
does heaven have its guards up on me ?
because im feeling the heat more and more.
so heaven, open your doors.
im not good at expressing how i feel,
but oh, this is just unbearable.
take the weight of this world off my shoulders...
because im only one deep.
and im thinking that he wants pain in this world's keep.
and if so, then i dont think i could handle it.
or maybe i could...
because i cant differenciate between pain and whats really good.
and you didnt make it easier on me...
because you done took my breath away.
please give it back...
because i cant do without it,
and youre not here to breathe for me anymore.
but are you kidding me ?
please tell me my eyes are deceiving me.
all this work for her...
when did this transition occur ?
and what hurts the most is the feeling of wanting what i cant have...
i want you, but cant have it.
its like you took my only option away when you chose to stop chasing for 'we...'
and i cant keep running if theres no one behind me.
i live by my promises, but i guess you dont.
so whats trust ?
because its no longer in my lexicon.
all i had believed in had up'd and gone.
and the amount of love i had in my system has been withdrawn.
Copyright © Maria Truong | Year Posted 2009
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Maria Truong Poem
to all these thoughts that are keeping me up at night,
GIVE ME A BREAK.
it seems as though they all start to attack me once im awake.
And devils they are,
they escape my reality to find me in my dreams.
waking up in the middle of the night gasping for air,
for fear of losing it.
these thoughts are eating me away bit by bit.
tossing and turning,
but they follow me left and right.
and with this being said, please hold me tight...
promise me with every reaching second, i will be safe in your arms.
and i you cannot be here, pray for me.
help shield me from the evils that i cannot see.
'what you cannot see, cannot hurt you,' right ?
well, they assassinate the mind in ways that it is mentally incapable of recovering.
i would like to think i am strong enough,
but i cannot tell a lie.
i cannot face these fears if i tried.
and it feels that i have let myself down,
but i am trying to pick myself up.
'life is but a dream to me,'
and i have every intention of still trying to have control.
i just need a cleansing of the mind, body, and soul.
my conscience is haunting me,
my angels are forsaking me.
who is going to save me ?
Copyright © Maria Truong | Year Posted 2009
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Maria Truong Poem
i know you like i know the next step im going to take.
always right over whats left,
the extremes of this that i must accept.
it seemed as though the love we shared was at its peak...
until soon enough, it was realized that
talk was cheap and game was weak.
and you must think im crazy for calling it love,
but the signs were all there for me from the gods and heavens above.
you were the one to make me the happiest and to hurt me the most.
but i never thought that you would ever hurt me,
i never thought that you would ever deceive me,
i never thought you would be the one to leave me.
but things are never what they seem
and what you say is not always what you mean.
Copyright © Maria Truong | Year Posted 2009
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