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Nizy Minzz Poem
Sticks and stones may break my bones
And Ed Sheeran may say “that’s okay baby, only words bleed”
Tight jeans, thick thighs, flabby arms and…
Weight.
So the comment section rise in height and pain
Thus the confession begins:
Those who give shall receive
So think twice before you judge me
As I’ve been generous in my past
Questions appear while answers disappear
She who gave me life
He who build me up
Never asked yet your ‘concern’ is heavy
Sticks and stones does break my bones and I ain’t screaming “I’ am titanium!”
Each word becomes an immortal
And walks in silence yet being so loud
Shame glimmers
As sour thoughts blossom
And judgment paves a path
Poisoning itself to its own demise
The bitter truth is that
I wish to be the person you ‘need’ to see
But also to seal your foul lips
As the chemical melts its way on them
And as I hear you choke six feet under
Making us equal
A suppressed mirth spreads its wings
“Muhahahahahahahahaaaa!”
Copyright © Nizy Minzz | Year Posted 2019
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Do you know the value of life?
You don't but you do
Deep inside
Who do you think you work for to learn how to walk?
Who do you think you work for when you take good grades in an exam?
Who do you think you try to work for each and every day,waking up and going back to sleep even though so many people, so many things,so many moments let you down?betray you?make you so weak,that you scream and run wild inside?
And yet you find this glimpse of hope or a ray of motivation which you hold onto.tight.not letting it go.never.
The answer is you!
Yourself!
YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So tell me again why you value life?why YOU value YOUR life more than anything?
You may say that you value others more than yourself but isn't there a little box labelled as 'i love myself' in a corner..hidden away.
You may find it when in a situation where your life is on the line.
How you gasp and laugh and clutch your heart saying 'omg that was so close' when missed by an inch from a car accident, proves it.
So just imagine how in the world a person could ever take their own life when you value YOUR life more than anything or anyone?!
They have gone through and endured something or someone that made them so unhappy so miserable and so dark that they didn't know how to escape it other than taking their own life.
Imagine the mentality of a person who has woken up in the morning and had breakfast and did their day today's things,met friends and family and then go home and hang themselves.
Imagine the mentality of a person who plans his or hers way of ending their own life.
Just to forget.to escape.to be free.
Tell me how pain led you to do that?
Tell me how desperate you felt of leaving everyone and everything you love to escape your past,your present or your future...
Tell me how?
Is it the only way you could escape whatever it was haunting you?
Is it that painful?
So so painful that it gave you miraculous power and guts to end your own life when others are trying to be immortal.
I can't call you a coward
I can't call you a hero
Maybe a fallen hero...
A fallen hero who won his own battle by ending it all.To be free.the ultimate price of freedom.
Even though I write for you and imagine..imagine the immense pain,loneliness,hatred,anger,sadness..I can't.I just can't imagine it because I value my life so much that I can't even imagine myself committing suicide.
I pray for these fallen heroes.
And the heroes who are at the brink of winning their battles by ending it all.
I pray that you would find that glimmer of hope or that ray of motivation...and try your best to hold on,and become a super hero.
It feels heavy,dark and weak, and to fall in the end to lose it all.
But I pray for you to wake up and go to bed thinking just one more day..and may the heavens and angels or anyone or anything do something to change your mind.
I know it's hard.that it feels impossible.but believe me miracles do happen.
So I pray that you'd be a miracle super hero.win life.win pain.win weakness.win loneliness.win your own strength and despair that led you to the end of the precipice.
Be your own Hero!
Become your own miracle!
And tell the Grim reaper "not today".
Copyright © Nizy Minzz | Year Posted 2019
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What’s stupider?
Knowing that this is going nowhere,
But awaiting for a response from you
Knowing that there’s no going back,
But enjoying those small tingles whenever the screen flashes
Knowing that you’re different from before,
But expecting the same as before
Knowing that I’ve lost,
But reminiscing how you made me feel so loved
Knowing that you’re distancing yourself from me,
Yet not willing to accept it
Knowing that it hurts and certainly feel utterly and hopelessly foolish,
Still, clinging onto that last thread of hope..
Oh how quickly my days changed from the usual,
To sweet unrealistic dreams of you and I
And how painfully easy it was to change,
In the blink of an eye.
Copyright © Nizy Minzz | Year Posted 2023
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Regrets
Impatience coursed through my body
The mehendi art is taking a long time
Then there was you
My heart skipped a beat
Our eyes met and I looked away
Quick glances paved a path towards him
Why was I so impatient before?
I decided to take a seat in the hut
Knowing that I'll have a clear view of you
Then there was you
Hurrying towards me and sitting beside me
Now I'm a mess
And he starts shifting towards me
And I shift away from him
Making me clamp my lips hard so I wouldn't smile to myself
Your laugh
It stood out like a definition given at lectures your voice
I listened intently
Like its the instructions given at a mid exam
Making me clamp my lips even harder
She finished it quickly!
Now why was I impatient again?
Oh yah he's still there
Not having a clue that he's making my tummy a kaleidoscope of butterflies
Are we that desperate to have a quick taste of love at first sight?
Is it even love?
Maybe..
I moved myself away from him
Away from the hut
Towards the little gap between the wall
Swallowing my feelings of regret
Do I have to go home?
Whoa! love does make you blind
Were you that special to make me still think about you
To write about you
To try to remember your laugh
I guess you certainly are
I regret it now
I regret that I didn't make a move to show how much I like you
I regret holding back my smile
I regret not saying a word to you when you sat beside me
I regret every passing second knowing that I would never see you again
Glancing at my mehendi art
Realization crept out
A few minutes
A huge crush
A heavy weight of regret.
Copyright © Nizy Minzz | Year Posted 2019
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Nizy Minzz Poem
Impatience coursed through my body
The mehendi art is taking a long time
Then there was you
My heart skipped a beat
Our eyes met and I looked away
Quick glances paved a path towards him
Why was I so impatient before?
I decided to take a seat in the hut
Knowing that I'll have a clear view of you
Then there was you
Hurrying towards me and sitting beside me
Now I'm a mess
And he starts shifting towards me
And I shift away from him
Making me clamp my lips hard so I wouldn't smile to myself
Your laugh
It stood out like a definition given at lectures your voice
I listened intently
Like its the instructions given at a mid exam
Making me clamp my lips even harder
She finished it quickly!
Now why was I impatient again?
Oh yah he's still there
Not having a clue that he's making my tummy a kaleidoscope of butterflies
Are we that desperate to have a quick taste of love at first sight?
Is it even love?
Maybe..
I moved myself away from him
Away from the hut
Towards the little gap between the wall
Swallowing my feelings of regret
Do I have to go home?
Whoa! love does make you blind
Were you that special to make me still think about you
To write about you
To try to remember your laugh
I guess you certainly are
I regret it now
I regret that I didn't make a move to show how much I like you
I regret holding back my smile
I regret not saying a word to you when you sat beside me
I regret every passing second knowing that I would never see you again
Glancing at my mehendi art
Realization crept out
A few minutes
A huge crush
A heavy weight of regret.
Copyright © Nizy Minzz | Year Posted 2019
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The distant sound of chanting pirith
the chirping crickets
A few rain drops falling
The chill in the air wrapping around my feet
The rickety chair heaving at my sisters weight
And the feeling...
The feeling which churns in my stomach
The feeling that tightens my heart
The occasional glance at the time
And the sickening realization that sinks in to me
A few more hours before I leave..
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Hurt
Remorse
Betrayal
Pain
Fear
Blood
Blood that bonds us together
Together till death
All forgotten
Nothing matters
As the scarlet monster emerges through you
As it takes the reigns of hurt
Remorse
Betrayal
Pain
Fear
Blood
Blood that bonds us together
Together till death
Nothing matters
As despair envelope me
With a burning scar
That is yet to be erased.
Copyright © Nizy Minzz | Year Posted 2020
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