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Love Lost Poem
My mind my greatest bully
Constantly beating me up shoving me out the way
Steady trying to catch my breath
Try not to regret
The top half of my shirt wet
my mind cying from so much wonder
IF, an's, Maybes
I'm feeling a little shady
I'm in a relationship an when my heart races
Its screaming
"You cant erase this!!"
Your glowing skin
your contagious smile
Cute laugh
your quirkiness
Oh how I miss...
NO SNAP OUT OF IT!
My mind screams
"No that's in the past it did not last shake it off for it will not pass!"
A part of me wishes I never asked you out who knows where we would be
I cant stop my brain from wondering
I dont want to regret
Like every human
I want answers
It's for my heart
the one falling apart
I know I'm meant to feel more
Compare my heart to a toy
Throw it in the corner after it brings you much joy
Move on
I miss the conversation
I miss your intellect
The way you turned me on no matter what time it was or the choice of words you would say
My mind screams
"No that's in the past it did not last shake it off for it will not pass!"
Our time was cut short
I believe there was a meaning for this
What am I supposed to take in from all of this?
I want to hear you say my name again
If it has to end Let's end the right way have one more
Phone call
we can leave off on a laugh instead of hurt
Just like this poem I have been everywhere part of me pretends not to care
Why did we stop talking?
The path we chose we should not have walked nor even talked
My mind screams
"No that's in the past it did not last shake it off for it will not pass!"
AHH I just want to yell !!!!!
Play this back as if it was a movie reel
Recreate my start an end
I wonder if you still think of me they way my mind makes me think of you
Copyright © Love Lost | Year Posted 2020
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The feeling of cold glass accompanied by A aroma of hops against my lips only helped so much
My thoughts viciously unbaring...
One would say It would be better lifeless
Truly it's more of my fault than yours
You are not to blame for my lack of strength when it comes to loving an losing
I pull It together
Losing myself was putting me In danger causing me to lie with no reason
I wouldnt lose like that to myself..
I learned how to appreciate being alone rather than surrounding myself with people & noise to distract my own mind
I was smoking cigarettes on patios
Only thinking about the grey
Numbing myself with vodka sprite
Recklessly pondering at night
I started chasing my dream again after being in the dark for long it was exhausting
I'm back to singing as If I was a bird chirping bright an early with a reason to live
The reason Is I know I have so much to lose & so much to live for
Nothing says I have to forget you or hate you
A lesson learned
as they would say "was to good to be true"
My luck is terrible an my timing Is crap
The universe will work It's wonders
If an only If we are meant to be
I believe In miracles
Until then I shall continue building myself up stronger an proceed healing every day
Copyright © Love Lost | Year Posted 2019
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Love Lost Poem
3:00 A.M.
4:00 A.M.
6:44 A.M.
All I can focus on an think of is how it was
Gone forever?
My heart is more in shock then mentally distraught
You should not be that girl that is forgot
You brought me some knowledge into my life
I'm sure I said the sentence "I want you to be my wife"
You're right anyways I wasn't meant for you
You are so damn intelligent
Your vocabulary is phenomenal
Just wonder why you didnt make me a poem to describe how you hurt
I want to see you happy
But the fact I have to let you go an keep you as a lesson learned is what really truly hurts you're like a ghost I cant even hear your voice this wasn't my choice
You were right to leave me I was going no where at this pace
You're beautiful you're smart I always knew it from the start
Just know you MEAN ALOT know your worth
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you make me feel some type of way
Even though we're both broken
Soaking inside of our thoughts
Hoping to never be forgot
Sit around an rot
Nooooo that's not something we can do
We're better than that crap
So let's take a walk an vent
on how we feel 100%
Stop holding on for so damn long
You're not a sponge no need to absorb all of the negative energy
Let free...
Now that it's just me an you
I know what to do
Come here let me hold you
You wont hear me say I TOLD YA
Your decisions are yours to discover good or bad
But the pain is mine to take
Make you smile like a fool is what I'll do more than gladly for you
Because I love you
Even when you think I couldnt hold on this bumpy ride
I'm here
I'm not going any where
Feel free to cry I'll dry your eyes
Despise all your anger inside
Baby dont let it reside
We're only human ×2 you deserve more.. know your worth×2
You shine brighter then the sun reflecting off the white snow
I'll pick you up when you are down
you're bad thoughts we will drown
I promise I'm no clown
I'm here to stay an wash away all of this negativity
I need you an you need me
So let's heal together
No matter the weather
I'm here for you ×2
you make me feel some type of way
Even though we're both broken
Soaking inside of our thoughts
Hoping to never be forgot
Sit around an rot
Copyright © Love Lost | Year Posted 2020
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Sun trickles through curtains specifically where my eyes lay
My face gaining a sense of warmth
My eyes visually see peachy orange hues
My brain already panicking
WHAT WILL WE DO
I lay still eyes unopened in hopes it is not yet a new day
Only yesterday
I repeatedly wanted to simply fade away
Yet I have been given another day?
Truly it does not matter even in my dreams I can’t escape
Listen for a moment I know I sound selfish
I wish I could view myself from a different perspective
My thoughts are overly protective
Due to the chemicals in my brain and trauma I went through Back some days
Causing me to lose connection with myself
Where my left and right side of my brain fight everyday
So close they still lack communication ….
No
I lay still eyes unopened in hopes it is not yet a new day
Only yesterday
I repeatedly wanted to simply fade away
Listen for a moment
This is not something that I have chosen
What I choose is to question my existence as I battle
to solely find my purpose … Huge MISTAKE
Why?
Why am I here what is the reason
Repeatedly while life’s passing through seasons
I learned quickly searching for one’s purpose was unheard of especially at such a young age
Society’s expectations set so high when one does not meet them they would rather wither away
TO BE FORGOT
Take me instead and let another stay in my place
As I ponder do I have the strength to make a difference in the world let alone my own day some days?
What is so important to be given the opportunity to live another day
When I feel as it’s wasted away
Hold on please listen
I hear when you say
You’re so smart
You’re so talented
You are so kind
You can help so many
Make sure to fill your cup as you fill others or you’ll no longer have not a drop left to put upon others let alone hydrate yourself
Well it’s not as if I woke up one day made a
Deal with the devil or prayed on my knees for hours ASKING FOR ISSUES WITH MY MENTAL HEALTH
I am aware how unfair it is to acknowledge Negative over positive I’m getting there I promise
I am surrounded by caring friends and loved ones I appreciate it taking into consideration that is a luxury to some
Some aware of the constant battle happening in my mind
I lay still eyes unopened in hopes it is not yet a new day
Only yesterday
I repeatedly wanted to simply fade away
I honestly truly so much of my life I have said
I WANT TO DIE
Why? My soul feeling tired reminding myself I will be fine
Each day I push forth simply to be OK
Copyright © Love Lost | Year Posted 2025
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