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Best Poems Written by Eliani Mountjoy

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Did and Me - Us

My doctor says I'm mentally ill
I say I have superpowers
My family says I'm going insane
That I've not been myself the last couple of hours

"Stop acting like a boy", I hear
Yeah Susan that's kind of hard
I wish I could take control again
And show you it was never me from the start

I want to be alone in my body again
But then again so do they
I don't know where they came from
All I know is they're here today

I don't really know what time it is
And recalling my doings are hard
Sometimes i go lost, gone completely
Others I watch from afar

Atleast I have a friend though
And my life's never a bore
This is me or us signing out now
6 , 7 , 8 out in core

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The Man In the Cloak

To the man in the cloak
The drop of water in a glass of tequila
The moment of silence between cries
The kiss of sanity between storms

To the whisper in the dark
The hidden notes in a hymn
The mask behind the paint
The eyes behind the tears

To the mime with speakers
The one who plays the joker..
When the king is on his head
The one who fools, in fear of being fooled

To the one who saves by burying
Shadowing his ashes in fear that the black will stain the ravens
But the wings are spread, always have been
Waiting for the shadows to burn the numb feathers

To the funeral wrapped in circus 
To the blood painted with syrup
From the blink black pouring raven
To the man in the cloak

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Dark Green Forest

I do not know what came over me
To find myself back in this hole
To change my views so suddenly
Craving the feeling to fall

I do not know why I'm so attracted
To the things that destroy me inside
To the feeling of being lost and hopeless
Like I don't want to fight to stay alive

I do not know why I'm so addicted
To the pain from my self hatred hex
To the feeling of anxiety pooling in my stomach
The drowning feels better than sex

I do not know why I'm on my knees begging
Crying for mercy or release
When the moment I'm set free, I'm wilting 
Longing for being deceased

The darkness has been buried inside me
And though the light can easily come in
I feel like maybe I do not wish to
Ever be alive again

I do not know if this is a cry for help
Or myself making peace with my hell
Though I'm saying I love being tortured
I'm saying I wish I never fell

So I'm sitting in the depths of despair
Satisfied if I'm being quite honest
Enjoying the pain inflicted on me
Like a masochist in the dark green forest

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Chronic Pain

I wake every morning
Sometimes in the middle of the night
With a jolt, or a sting, and it causes a fright 

It could be anywhere
Head, sides or knee
But it has never, or will be, any less than three

I fear my death at any given time 
The slightest of itches makes my anxiety climb 

My ears are ringing 
I start to cry
What did I do to deserve this deny-

Of health and of peace 
A normal life
All I want is a job, a house and a wife

But I'm stuck in this bed
Alone with my thoughts 
Yearning for the days I could still go take walks

When my lungs didn't burn
When my bones didn't ache
When walking to the other room
Didn't make my legs shiver and quake 

When my head didn't throb
When my muscles weren't sore
To the point where I felt I couldn't think anymore 

Sometimes I wonder if it's something I did wrong 
If my life is even worth more than a line in someone else's song 

I wonder is there purpose to the agony I endure 
The paranoia it causes me makes me so insecure 

But I keep drinking my medication 
And I try to stay sane
I'll take it day by day
Because I live with chronic pain

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Months of Progression

November, I don't want you
I don't want your phrases
I don't want your time
I don't want your care

December, I don't want you
I might enjoy your praises
I might like how you try
I don't want you there

January, I might want you
I like that we're no longer strangers
I don't like it when you cry
I like the gleam in your stare

February, I want you
I feel protected against the worlds dangers
You brighten my days, I cannot lie
The way you manage my heart is hardly fair

March, I want to keep you
I need our heartfelt exchanges
When you're around everything is alright
These emotions are stripping me bare

April, I need you
You became the beauty in my life's painter
Your smile is a woeful sight
It would seem you're the answer to my every prayer

May, I love you
All my walls have collapsed and I'm plainer
In my weakest moments you fill me with might
If I say so myself we're the perfect pair

June, I might lose you
I look back at my younger self and I blame her
The wick is growing shorter, we burn too fast, too bright
In my heart I feel a wound start to tear

July, I lost you
You're still here but I'm just your entertainer
You've chosen a different path to walk this night
I'm shattered on the bathroom tiles, this ending is bitterly fair

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The Truth You Can'T Ignore

Somebody once called me mad
And I thought that it made me the hatter
Somebody once called me ugly
And I thought that it made me a swan
Somebody once called me psycho
And I thought I was making a path
But somebody once called me happy
And I realized where I went wrong
When somebody points out your imperfections
It's often easier to act like they don't exist
Blame it on somebody's jealousy
All the ugly truth; you can resist
But when somebody says that you're perfect
Or you're happy, when you know you are not
The feeling that boils up inside of you
Will kill you and leave you to rot