the look of you in my David Bowie t-shirt
i swore to myself
when i saw who she became
that i would never want a domestic life,
i would never settle down.
but the simple act,
of holding you,
listening to the sounds of your sleeping
as you lay in my purple David Bowie t-shirt
two sizes too big,
i think i changed my mind.
i want a life with you.
i don't care if that's domestic,
I don't care if that's settling down,
i want a life with you,
and i want it to last.
and i want to see you in my t-shirts,
and hold you,
and love you.
and i want us together,
and i want to see your big green eyes
with your bright smile,
against the purple of the fabric
of my clothing.
and i want to see you happy,
safe,
i want you to return from a family visit,
and not have tears in your eyes,
because this time,
this time
that family will be ours.
and i want to hold your hand,
and I'm without religion but
i found faith in your face,
and i want to frame your picture on my bedroom wall
and read it like scripture.
i want you,
and you,
and only you.
and i want to love our life together
because you make me better,
but i know
that is not for you to carry.
that is not for you to hold
on your shoulders,
like the weight the world
has already bore onto you,
i will not bare my soul,
but i cannot bare the thought of us apart
i want us to leave this place,
a brand new start,
and i want it with you,
because
for the first time,
i feel like it's possible.
i feel like we are.
and i want you to know you're not alone,
and i want you to know that you're a work of art,
and you're beautiful,
and wonderful,
a phenom of those before you who you broke free of
and wrote yourself
a new series
a chapter
a home
a belonging
you created a life for yourself,
and you'll continue to create,
because you're brilliant,
and you shine so bright,
and i swear to you,
with all my might
that I'll be there
i will
and i will
and i will.
siempre,
forever,
always.
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Oliver Chu
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