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Msunderstood
Day after day
Symptom after symptom
I go through this feeling of loneliness
Irritability
Snappiness
Anger
Depression
Unhappiness
Sadness, as tears roll down my face
I can’t believe eight years has passed
Seems like life has gotten harder
Slowly things crashed
In my head, my life is still the same
But life has recently taught me
That this is not me anymore
You’re different now
You have to grasp it
A flood of tears run down my face
A disability has taken over
This isn’t me, is this my life?
Is it me?
Or is it the world around me?
Running fast in my mind
But moving as slow as a sloth in reality
Am I still beautiful?
Am I still a good mom?
Am I still worthy?
Confusion sets in
I’m speaking but I’m not heard
My words come out
Sense is not made
Judgment of who I am now
Arguments and aggravation overcome me
Feeling stupid and dumb
Are negative feelings who I have become?
Memory loss
Mistakes
Vision problems
Loss of mobility
Loss of appetite
Depression and anxiety
This has become me!
I don’t want it anymore
I wish this pain was like garbage,
I can bag it up and toss it
but at the end of the day this is real life and I am
MS-understood!!!
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Skylisha Vasquez
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