The worst thing about depression
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depression
Yes depression is horrible it eats away at you and makes you feel empty pointless and non existent.
Non existent you may think how does that make sense well let me explain it, it eats away at you that much it makes you feel like youre no longer a person you have no feelings youre empty inside, you may as well be dead but that’s not the worst part.
The worst part is when you fight so hard to get to that happy part in your life and everything is going alright pretty well I could say, all these dark thoughts all the nights your laying there wishing to be dead there all gone and you think they will never come back but youre wrong.
And that is the worst part just when everything was going right for a change it creeps back and slowly but it’s like it’s all at once you’re facing everything you thought u had defeated.
All the time and effort you put in to being strong and getting through the hard times just wasted, feels like you did it for nothing and yeah you may think well you did it once why can’t you do it again but it’s not like that it’s harder this time, it’s more of struggle and that time u were so ready to give up its 10 times worse because your facing all those problems again but this time there’s more.
Your heads a mess, your hearts a wreck, there’s hardly anything left of you and that’s when you think what is the point? What’s the point In living? What’s the point in being here when everyday is a fight with yourself?
No one will ever understand you so you try to keep it all to yourself like nothings going on like everything is getting better, to everyone your happy can’t they see the smile on your face? But we all know if they looked in your eyes they would see youre breaking they would know that, that smile they see is fake. But for now that doesn’t matter because they can’t see that, they don’t know how much their words hurt you isn’t it all a joke? Oh of course I guess you just got the wrong idea, how pathetic right?
These people going around with all their harsh words not realising how much it can affect someone, those words they say can end someone’s life and nobody’s realised that, nobody’s stopping them, all those words there just a joke to everyone but yourself. No body thinks anymore about what their saying they don’t think that oh would I like it if somebody said that to me no, theyre just caught up in the moment making somebody’s else’s life worse to the point you think youre the problem, to the point you can’t face another day and that’s when the dark thoughts come, that’s when you look in the mirror and see somebody you don’t even recognise, a person you don’t love a person nobody can love,
And that, that is the worst thing about depression
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Hollie Moore
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