Your Lust An Infection

My heart right now so low. Which makes it so easy for these words to flow. A pain so deep that it cuts into my soul. My soul so blackened like coal. Im losing myself and all control. But right now my fingers and mind work as a whole. This thing that i feel makes my heart play the smallest role. Becuase now its all hate in my blackened soul. All i do is give you affection. But it goes unnoticed, not the smallest detection. Which makes this hate spread like an infection. I dont know what to fow i havent a selection. I feel we have such a disconnection. My feelings and your thoughts make this a hard intersection. My memories of old days make this a bad resurrection. Resurrection of all of my imperfections. I just want some love to be my protection. But you just cant feel the same connection. So i guess that leaves me with nothing but introspection. And lets me see my heart is in the wrong direction.