You Would Say Softly

I wish I could hear your voice one last time “Hey” you would say softly “I love you” you would quote literature by heart Tolstoy, Steinbeck, Vonnegut and then you would quote something of mine “because I know you by heart too” you’d tell me in that style you had, you would say softly «??????» (“Prashai”) one of our little rushing secrets “goodbye” and “forgive me” in one phrase but you never told me these things and then you were gone because of my words and did I ever forgive myself?