You Were Never What I Wanted
You Were Never What I Wanted
Why cast me as the villain
with your evil, insane lies?
Was it so reprehensible?
I permanently said, goodbye
Does the fact I’m no longer pretending, upset you?
My emotions, detached and nonchalant.
I tried to muster up the passion; you aren’t what I want.
Red eyes weep at the sounds of whispers,
anger rises amidst painful remorse.
intimate details paired with laughter
Still, I’ll remain on course
Although chaos fills the mornings,
I’m certain the moon will rise again at night.
I can‘t replace what breathes inside me,
I struggled to smother it, tried to fight.
It would have made my life much simpler,
maybe fixed what broke inside my mind
if I could have emulated your state of wanting
ceased believing lack of desire, is a crime.
Does my heartlessness, offend you?
Not that my dance card is marked, full.
You destroyed me with your rumors
this newfound freedom remains my will.
Copyright © Maria Delaney | Year Posted 2019