You miss

You miss me
I know that you do.
There’s always a doubt 
In the back of my mind
But not about this
Because I know you.

I know you 
Better than 
You know yourself.
So I’ll tell you why
You miss me.

You miss me, I’m sure
But you don’t miss me.
You miss the girl I used to be.

You miss the girl
You could use,
The one you 
Walked all over
Because that’s what she allowed.
She couldn’t say no—
Never to you.

You miss her ‘talking’
About all and nothing
Yet half the time
She was silent with you
And that’s what frustrated you
Most about her—
The silence in times
You wished she would talk.
The talking at all the wrong times.

You miss the girl
Who never went out
To experience life
Because it meant 
Having her all to yourself—
Even at the expense 
Of all of her friends.

You miss the girl
Who caved under pressure
And begged for your love.
The one who loved you
More than you deserved.

You miss the girl
Who never argued
Because she only wanted peace.

You miss the one
Who would lie for you
And withhold the untold
Just to make you look good.
The one who let you do all the talking,
Knowing you would lie to make yourself look good.

You miss the girl
Who let you hold the wheel
Because it was the only control
You’ve ever truly had. 

You miss the girl
Who never asked the right questions
Because it meant you could do
Whatever you pleased.
You miss the girl
Who never brought up the past,
Unaware that it 
Always plagued her mind.

You miss that girl
Who loved you wholeheartedly,
Unconditionally, irrevocably
Because you know
You will never find love like that again.

You miss me
Because I was the only one to miss.
I was that one prominent factor
You thought you'd never lose.
I was the distraction,
The one good thing 
You always used to say
In this unlucky life 
You have somehow inherited.
I was the only promised thing to you
And I left anyway.

You miss my touch
Because that was the first
You ever felt true warmth.
You miss my smile
Because it was the only
Sun you ever saw.

You miss this girl
That I no longer am.
You don’t really miss me.
You miss the idea 
You’ve formed in your head.
This version of me
Is outdated by now.
You don’t miss me.

You said it yourself;
You always knew I would leave.
The truth is: you don’t miss me.

You just know that I’ll find
A person more worthy of my love
Than you ever were.
You miss me because that fear
Will become a reality
And then I’ll be gone for good.

Inspired by him sharing an 'I miss you' photo on his status.

Copyright © Micheala Ruth September | Year Posted 2023

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