You and I

You who I barely know, unconditionally love.
We are so close, You and I, 
Yet we are too far apart.

What is it that persuades me to envy you?
How is it, looking at you, I see greatness? 
Why are you the one I try to find?

You, I want nothing more than to please You!
To show You I can meet more than you expect!
To prove You can be proud, of me.

Me, You look at me in distaste,
My presence is never something good.
Something you would wish for.
Conversation between us, never an occourning thought.

Why do You treat me so?
Can you not see this makes me miserable?
What You do, how You do it, when You do it!
I am sad, unbearably sad. 
Angry, unshakably angry. 

You do this and can not see it?
Not see the pain and scars I carry with me?
Do You not hear me now, right this minuet!

Crying out to You. 
Why do You walk away and disgrace me so?
And when You are here, You are not here at all.

Largest aspect of my life is You.
But where is it I fit into yours?
Have I ever been in it at all?

You, never looked in my eyes, 
Tell me you care about what I do.
Would it make a difference?

Untouchable You are, untouchable I am.
You do not share Yourself with me, 
I do not share myself with others.

Quiet you are, envious I am.
Pushing me away, 
Further along without You I get.

So alike, You and I.
Who I barely know, unconditionally love.
Our connection thin as a hair.
I have lost You.

Who makes me angry, 
Sad, miserable. The one I chase.
Who I can not talk to, can not see me,
The one that can not hear my cries. 
You, I undyingly love.

Copyright © Ahmad Abu-Gdairi | Year Posted 2023

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