Worthless

I’m an *******, that’s plain to see My fault, and hate being me Hard to change and hate what I’ve become I call it a monster, you say I'm not one Regrets and my biggest is you had to know me I hate being a burden, but hate worse being lonely I’m not suicidal, not not afraid of death Hated and forgotten are the only fears I have left And it's something that I always feel Afraid of losing those I love, afraid of being real And it's not easy to cope with If I were hated or forgotten by you I couldn’t stand it And I’m aware; you tell me not to worry I don’t think you understand how hard it is to stop You’ve told me often, I know my thoughts are stupid I just wish once you'd tell me I'm not so worthless ...I just wish I wasn’t so worthless….