Without My Kyle

The world is dark now, more then i can bear. I've got a gun now, got my bullets. A knife lying beside my bed. Pulling a gun to my head. I pull the trigger and wait, Why did you have to be out of state? I drink, four long gulps. Down the bottle, take the pill. Sleep it out. The pain, unbearable. I cry, I puke. God let me die. Your not here to hold me. Your not here to kiss me. Your not here to love me. But pain is here to hurt me. It seeps into my skin, drains me from my life. my life, it cant be lived this way. So i will not live, I will not see the suns first ray. I will die, for you tonight.