Withdrawal

Yellow eyes and nicotine patches Screaming goodbye Losing yesterday's matches Forgetting that I Am Not The Same Shaking arms hurting elbows tingling face Numb. Changed. Changing. My skin would disagree. Carve scratch cut bite pinch Burn twist writhe Agony agony agony agony agony I will scream your name into the sea Forlorn forlonging greet me Greet me I damn you, God Greet me. Never enough Never Enough Never enough. My stomach is twisting and vomit rises in my throat. Cigarette ash drops from shaking fingertips Tears drop from haunted, window wide eyes Spiraling through withdrawal Again