Wishful Thinkin

I'm sorry for leaving you the way I did I'm sorry that we won't get to have our kid The one we were planning on naming Jaden Look at me sitting here wishful thinkin Thinkin 'bout how much I miss you now And wondering how I let it all fall down Hating life and still loving you All confused and don't know what to do Constantly longing to hear your voice Pondering if maybe I do have a choice But no wait...that can't be Not after chasing what I thought was for me With time getting smaller day by day I have to keep you close somehow someway Stand at a distance and watch from afar Never let you know what's in my heart Keep it inside, don't let you see Just me wishful thinkin what I want us to be