Wilted and Willed

I'm lost, so lost, Can't find my way And the women there Just point and wave. Won't so much as To try and help This small, frightened person Face the right path. But I'm so lost, Wanting to be found, Hoping to find myself. Just need a hint... Anything is good enough! Something has to give, And I won't cave. No matter the cost. A leaf floats by There is nothing else. No complaints here, it Will have to do. Into haunted memories and Down sinful thoughts, now Starting to feel affections, Feelings. Not just emptiness. Almost there, keep going... Just a bit further! But no, the leaf Is caught in water. A wondrous, rushing river Happens to hold it. My dear leafy friend. Still, I must continue. Walking through scary feelings, Violent emotions, vivid thoughts. Walking is not possible. Soon, dashing is all That can keep me Safe from all of Those awful things inside. Is this really me? That is not what Is wanted of myself! Please, change these horrors! Someone, tell me now, Tell me to stop! No forgiveness is expected But please, help me... Save me from myself! Warmth, a certain type Spreads all around me. It swallows me entirely. Holding my broken being Together as if it Were made of mega-magnets. Then I hear it... “That is all, now...” Nothing comes to me. Now I realize that It never will come. But I have to Go to it, so Sitting in one place Will get me nothing. Have to keep going. The walk through emotions Soon becomes a fight For my self control. Then the feelings rise And I knock them Down. Thoughts that were Snakes, venomous and threatening, Were felled by me. I was completely lost And not a single Person would help me. Found myself, and pulled Through all of the Sinful desires around me. Now finally, I am Just a calm entity.