Wide Open Eyes

What will happen to me. i didnt want to know. she gave the advice i didnt want. will i fail will i keep my head high im afraid, deathly. of whoever has chosen my fate i dared to ask. she says who knows, not i said she believe what you believe, love what you love, and live how you havent lived i thank her and told her, her ramblings didnt make sense. so just go away. i get up, grab my ciggs, my lighter, and head to the bathroom im back to where i started staring at another white wall smoke clouding my brain the deathly smell lingering and clinging to my hair I think i think i think when ill quit these bad habits. and open my wide eyes?