Why Not Me?

Her heartbeat stops my breath suddenly dies. Her sole is at rest with my demise. Where did she go? Where did god go? Sometimes I pray and ask why her not me. Unearthing her pain and wrenching her from her world Sending her rebirthing to heaven has left me so uncertain. Do you exist my lord or do I. WHY. A word slowly making my innocence die. Take me so far away Until I have nothing left to say. It was her not me. Her pain set me free. Why is it she was the only one who can see? As someone who is blind how can that be. Hatred is consuming and taking it hold as a seed that continues to grow Deep inside I know. It was her not me. Why not me? Why did she have to die?