Why God Doesn'T Love Me

I don't understand why god doesn't love me; For I truly believed until I was about 10 and I was mess with and this person told me god wanted him to do this; This sent me to question my god and why this person was older and I wasn't sure why god let this happen to me? Older people were suppose to take care of the younger ones but I believed in god and I believed he would protect me but why did he let this happen to me? But I realized my god didn't care he was to busy with his own life. I tried to tell my mom but she says she didn't hear me so I don't believe her but this is the pass. I have a hard time believing in god today I think he has turned his back on the whole world and is about as concerned as when the first time he was rousted up from his slumber to deal with the Israelites I think he is bored with us all and just to many prayers to answer.