Why Does It Hurt

Howmuch pain can one man feel , When will he know when it is real. Must he reach a certain age in life , Or live through hard times and strife. Should he stumble and fall so many times , Maybe not able to see all of the signs. Is it important to always be on top , Possibly it is the path he should walk. So confusing these questions I have , They all seem to be driving me mad. Didn't think living was suppose to be so hard , Yet here I am with mine just falling apart. It is to the point now I am embarresed to say , That I must have been doing it the wrong way . I suppose one day I will figure it all out , This life I live and what it is all about. Lord I surely hope so before it's to late , Never did I expect this to be my fate . I will try much harder and stay in the fight , Hopefully soon I will be able to saee the light. It's silly how crazy this life can make us , Probably because we have never been able to trust . Maybe it is not pain that I always seem to feel , And it's just my life and it's for real. TA Carter