Who am I without achievement?

I am going to draw koi fish on my nails. Tiny little things, swimming free in a sea of blue they can’t see the end of. But I can. Everything has an end. You must remember - live life with your eyes set below that dark horizon. Everything has an end. Everyone has an end - a means they’re gunning towards. Do not set theirs as yours. I am going to draw koi fish on my nails (rewarding in its effort and focus) and for a moment, I just bask in the sun shining in from the window, broken up though it is by my blinds. Sitting here, doing jackall, is rebellion. I am the light of the sun. I am my love for my friends. I am my interests (and you know the best part? I have many yet to discover, many yet to be at). I am all that I give and all that I wish and all I surround myself with. I am the koi fish I draw on my nails.