Whether Broken Though Or Crawled Over

grasp & claw at an impenetrable wall a delay of inevitable thought swayed towards a measureless cave, a chaotic chimerical maw. breach it to find every form faintly out of reach so long found the end of every path abandoned the aftermath of every aborted thought the contorted afterbirth brought with it bloody roots & life's first waste & all i've denied, done wrong, forgotten in the haze of a long buried phase, begotten by my surroundings. this is not what i call myself that you see. what you hear now just a reflection fogged & unclear shadows of myself but nowhere near. whether broken though or crawled over somewhere deep within myself i've found what will be constantly battling to destroy everything i foolishly maintain. grasp it tight, this pit & bury desire within. grasp it tight, this pit, more than just willfull, its beginning is the end of ends.