When You Were Born

When you were born I was sure you were the most remarkable thing on the planet as you grew I knew it was true everything I had experienced paled in the light of who you were and the privilege of knowing you an empty life became full darkness became light no thing men value could compare to what is you How many cries beneath those eyes how much of you will I ever see guess you're a lot like me I have never celebrated my body I never cried for you I shared nothing but you asked me to and I never asked you I told you no stories for I cannot share the pain as I was taught that my outside should never betray my inside What I feel I must never show so that you would never know "to be seen and not heard " not allowed to speak any word your body is for service close your eyes and MIND (behave) I'm sorry my children that I gave this legacy to you the mother you never knew I have so few memories of kindness and nearly none of love I have tried to give you all that I had and I don't believe in myself that it could ever be enough I have been trying all my life to learn how to love I must let you go to make this journey yourselves I would be privileged to make this journey with you and I really don't want you focused on the past anyway I want you looking for love and happiness cause I'm still looking for it too but you all have given my happy memories (and I still think for you they were too few) Psalm 139 3 For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. 14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. COPYRIGHT © 2014 C Michael Miller via Duboff Law Group LLC