When the Rain Stops

how will i feel when the rain stops what will change where will i be depression over rides my feelings real gray skies in my head over come the dread can't seem to put it together , for whatever it is worth, i am stuck in this constant mud slide of total fear, of being swept away in the raging waters of emotions bouncing off debris of worry slurry of mixed thoughts need a break in this storm something positive a focus winds blowing life away blurred by past regrets hindered by the what ifs in life need a new beginning a want of something a feel of a real scene just want to sleep now end the weather in my mind repeating over and over "tomorrows forecast rain with winds at 45 miles an hour , the burnt areas will be on mud slide watch"