When the Hurting Started Aged Five

Over powered
and sat upon by he who was not my father.

The zippo lighter not my friend as he would
burn my fingers.
Autism,
made the pain I felt, so much, so much sharper.

The buckles of the belts always left a scar on
more than skin.

The spectrum of my range was testing and communication.
My thinking was not theirs as thinking went and
some teachers,
were as bullies as bullies came and went.

Unable to communicate, behavior changed as well.
Could I survive and grow to be a man and not a bully?
Copyright © | Year Posted 2022

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April 5, 2022 at 8:20 PM
James a beautiful heart wrenching poem….I’m so sad that happened to you just a little boy of five….it truly makes my heart ache for you. The things people do to children is atrocious….they should protect not hurt! I know you didn’t turn out to be a bully without asking! Bullies are just insecure ignorants…..you are so much better than them. Take care….Debx
Mclain Avatar
April 6, 2022 at 8:45 AM
Thank you dear, for your most welcome comment. I did not become that bully.
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April 5, 2022 at 2:44 PM
Ah, James, my heart goes out to you. It must have been a very difficult childhood as your stepfather didn't understand you and you didn't understand him. I know how traumatizing abuse can be. I hope you are free of it now.
Mclain Avatar
April 5, 2022 at 5:40 PM
I appreciate your kind comment that you left.
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