When I'm Crying

I started dating this pretty great guy
He’s never tried to make me cry
I don’t know how I feel about him
I mean in my heart I know he’s being genuine

I love him so much
But gosh It really sucks
To never be able to talk
Not in person, text, or call

To be left on delivered half the day
To simply get a response saying okay
To pour my heart into a paragraph
To hardly even get an I love you  back

But when we do call
You let me just sit and talk
You love me differently than anyone else
You make me feel better about myself

You’ve helped me get through so many things
And from my knowlegde, without even knowing
You gave me light at the end of the tunnel
When I buried myself at rock bottom, you handed me a shovel

Then the second I wipe my tears away
You stop talking to me and go about your day
Like no conversation happened
Like its something I imagined

Am I crazy, going insane
Yet again imagining things
Or am I treated more like your guy friend
Than your girlfriend

I mean you are always on my mind 
And I mean… all the time
But am I ever even in your head
Do you even mean the things you’ve said

Because I know for sure that I do
You don’t even understand how much I love you
But sometimes I get scared
That you really don’t even care

I mean you say you love me
But that’s hard to believe
When you only pay attention to me 
When I’m crying
Copyright © | Year Posted 2024

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Croft Avatar
April 30, 2024 at 12:07 PM
I hope that this is not true. you shouldn't have to cry for him to look and be attentive, he should want to talk and spend time with you. Enjoyed reading your poem going back and forth between his emotions if any and your emotions.
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June 25, 2024 at 6:29 PM
??thank you! We broke up in like February!
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